Christmas activities!

Finally, i've got more than enough reasons to blog again! So, for the past a week, life has been pretty much exciting and interesting. Oh yes, did i forget to say that i just came back from genting? Anyway, i'll elaborate on that if i have the time and energy to do it.

As you all know, 25th is Christmas day! And if i haven't greeted you MERRY CHRISTMAS, here's one going out to all of you! MERRY CHRISTMAS! And to Jesus, definitely this day is His day, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I shall continue with the many events that have occured. Ever since 21, which is a Wednesday if i'm not wrong, we had a house party organised by my cell group, which was themed "All i want for christmas is..." It's the usual practice that the cell groups organised christmas home parties. And i thank God all of my friends came for it! Thank you people! Hope you all had fun, because i did had fun though.

And then following the 23rd, well nothing too glamorous about, but was at black. It was fun too! Thanks Cal! And ever since that night, my body clock's screwed up until now! I reached home at about 7 in the morning?

And then the next day, which was the 24th, Christmas eve, i woke up at about 4 o'clock and before i knew it, i had to get dressed up and rushed down to church for carolling! I must admit that this year's carolling's really good and exciting! I had lot's of fun! I just love carolling! We sang and took many many pictures. I'll be putting up some of the pictures of my blog, so you can have a look at them!

And carolling totally stole the limelight away from the "fun" at orchard. Was pretty much disappointing to see how would some people celebrate Christmas with the least meaning of just arming themselves with spray cans on each hand, blindly and annoyingly spraying at any random passerby. Town didnt even look like town for a moment, it looked as if a grenade war had just begun and there were empty shells lying all over the streets. I felt pretty much apprehensive and at the same time annoyed, because the last thing that i would like to see myself in is to be filled with foam all over from head to toe, feeling all so sticky, when you've actually took so much time and effort just to dress up for the occasion. So being already so turned off, within half an hour, i left for nick's house.

It was pretty fun over at nick's house. I felt a sense of relieved because we managed to escape from the street of chaos as so we perceived. We went for supper with his bro at some old coffee shop, somewhere near tanjong pagar and then left for nick's house. We didn't really sleep until at about 6 in the morning?

So it was another day that i didnt get good sleep, because i had to wake up at 9 which was 2 hours away, and then i had to rush home. To get changed for christmas service and i had to pack my stuff, to get ready for the genting trip which i'd be leaving for on that night. After christmas service, although i was hit with extreme fatigue, i felt happy giving away some of the presents i bought for my church mates! I'm sorry if i didnt get you any gifts, because a hole is really burning in the pocket! Forgive me yeah! There's one more thing that actually kept me surviving which was the lunch reception after christmas service, the one and only thing that got enticed and caught my attention, it could be none other than the the "Chocolate fountain!" It was this machine that creates a fountain of chocolate sauce and you're suppose to dip fruits or mashmallows into them and after that take a bite...SENSATIONAL! Love chocolates! It was really good!

Still, i didnt sleep at all. After everything ended, i left for my aunt's place for more christmas celebrations. By the time i reached my aunt's place, i couldnt stand the lethargy and thought of going to sleep, but my dad said that he wanted to go down to queenstown and of course i was tempted by it and i relented, i followed him. It was a wrong choice, because my head felt super heavy, i thought it could almost spin and if at any point of time i'd to close my eyes, i would fall into a very deep sleep.

At about 10 in the night, still on the 25th, i left for genting with my school mates. By that time, i couldn't stand it anymore, i knew i needed to sleep, so immediately after all the administrating issues were settles and the bus arrived, i threw my bag into the bus, and raced to the designated seat and fell asleep.

Madness, i tell you! I was exhausted from all the activities! But even then, i couldn't have sleep that was non-interrupted because i had to pass through the customs and settle all the immigration issues. So my sleep was pretty much interrupted here and then.

And when we reached genting at about 6 in the morning? That's the worst timing you could ever reach genting. Because we couldn't check into our hotels any time soon until 1230 and that will be 6 and a half hours away! Tired! I declared tired and i went to the nearest starbucks, bought a drink and doze off to sleep until about 11.

Ah i wish i could blog even further about the activities that happened for the past few days, but i'm getting tired...So i shall continue tomorrow then! Goodnights everyone!

God bless!

the trouble with life

............Situation 1....................
Person A: Hey! There's an event i'd like you to go for, would you be free?
Person B: Alright then!

and then a few days later...

Person A: Hello again, today's the event, so you're going right?
Person B: Erm..I'm sorry...but..i don't think i'll be able to make it..So sorry!
Person A: But i thought you could make it?
Person B: Sorry!
Person A: .....okay then.

...................Situation 2..................
Person A: Hey could i borrow your discount card from you?
Person B: Yeah sure. When do you need it?
Person A: Pretty soon, so when can i get it from you?
Person B: Anytime!
Person A: Great! See you!

And then a couple of days later...

Person A: Hey can i meet you tomorrow or the day after to get the card from you?
Person B: Erm..i'm really sorry, i can't meet you tomorrow or the day after.
Person A: Oh why?
Person B: Well, i've already got plans for the day.
Person A: ....Okay..so when can i get from you the card again?
Person B: Oh shit, i'm really sorry, i just lend the card to another friend! I'm really sorry!
Person A: ...Sigh..alright..


Familiar isn't it? Daily occurences.. Nowadays, it's hard to please others, yet it's hard to please yourself with others. When somebody turns you down, should you get angry? Should you just be understanding? Both sides aren't good anyway.

If you get angry with the other party, they might evade and avoid you. While if you be nice, somehow, one day, they might even take it for granted and conveniently climb over your head. And you'd think to yourself, what did i get at the end of all this? And nothing comes to your mind, except disappointment and frustration. And then the more you think about it, still nothing.

Yes, the answer is nothing. You dont gain anything out of being nice nor being firm.

The bloody trouble with life. And i can still believe people could really say, 'relax'. Don't you think to yourself sometimes, what's the use of saying sorry, if everything's just going to be undone and nobody gives a shit, because 'sorry' is just a word of escapism and at the end enthrone themselves into oblivion?

Bitterness you can say about me right now. But seriously, three words, one phrase, I HAD ENOUGH.

rui en!

Did you see rui en on television last night!! Shit, she threw me off my seat the moment the camera flashed and paused at her and when i even had knowledge about her clinching an award for herself, she made me flipped off the seat and i could hardly make any noise, because the bloody camera was FOCUSED on her! She's damn pretty! =)

But somehow she doesnt seem very happy, i feel that she's not happy about something, others say that she's arrogant. What do you think?

p.s but i still think she's pretty.

divine encounter

yesterday, i saw an angel!

Those words..

Even when you're far away, i havent forgotten the words i've said to you and i know you'd still remember what i've said. Realistically, i'll wait for you, until i am unable to wait for you anymore. But for now, still remember me because i'm always here for you..waiting..

what do you do?

The thought of having weekends are great but at the same time, they could be so much of a stressful, burdensome, irritating day of the week. Don't you think so?

Well..simply because if you're a person like me, i don't really support the idea of 'wasting' away my weekends just like that. 'Wasting' could mean, "Shit, what should i do for the day?" or when you've already thought of planning to go out with friends and then you start to ponder, "Who should i go out with?"

It's just irritating when you simply can't find anybody that you truly desire to go out with...

a part of the night at paragon

Instead of writing a really lengthy entry about how i'd spend my day yesterday, i guess pictures could substitute a thousand words for me.

As you could clearly see from the pictures, there's me, jwong, my aunt and her friend! We were at paragon, starbucks, chilling out! And definitely(as how my aunt would term it), cam -whoring!

But it really was very fun! A fun night out! With plenty of posing, jokes and riddles! -grins-

on a saturday night

My contact lens are beginning to irritate me. I've been wearing it since 12 in the afternoon and yes, it's drying up in my eyes and i'm feeling uncomfortably tired. Presently, i'm at my aunt's house and without any doubt, i'm definitely sitting in front of her computer and writing this entry down.

Was invited to my aunt's house because one of my aunties' child's one month old, so growing up in a more or less pretty much traditional family, the practice of celebrating the baby's one month of age is never too new.

Hmmm..to say, i really have a lot of aunts and strangely, using the english language, they are still 'aunt'. And then if you ask me, "Which Aunt?". I've got to give you a whole presentation about my family tree. BUT in chinese? Now, that's a different story...and i shan't continue with it.

Alright, my aunt just came into the room. And..and..yes that's about it. She doesnt mind me hogging her computer so i shall continue with this entry. I know, im such an ass nephew.

Hmm...somehow, i just can't churn out anything to write about anymore. Maybe i should continue with blogging when i'm home, but then again, i guessed i would be too tired to do a whole lot of typing.

So can i end off now?

Laters!

Happy Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRUDDA WAYNE!!

TRIPLE KILL!

OKAY THIS IS SO COOL! TTTRRRIIIPPPLLLEEE KILL! SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY Y'ALL!

happy birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARIEL, MY BIATCH, STUDMAN!!!

Happy Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON HUR HUR!

happy belated birthday wilson

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLIE WONKA HELLBOY!

Clubbing at newsroom

Last night was the worst of all my drinking and clubbing times. BUT it was helluva fun! A night packed with so many 'adventures'. Haha. Guess i wouldn't be going for anymore parties until Dec 23rd..it can really burn a hole in the pocket. Man... I think the next time i club, it's best that i don't over drink... 3 times in a row i got wasted! Don't want to puke all over the place again...

Guess it's time to enjoy the drink and dancing!

Hmm today seems as if its a sunday or something. Thank God it's a public holiday!

Lackadaisical me.

yawns...man i'm so tired.. i've been busy working for the past few hours and only now then could i get a little bit of rest from everything. Lunch hour for me is pretty near but somehow i don't feel like eating and yet i'm hungry. Ever experience such moments before? I guess, if i'd were to go and look for food now, i'll be more than happy to eat.

I just gave the longest and widest yawn of the century.. i'm really tired. I dont think having more than 10 hours of sleep will make me anyhow awake. I've been so tired recently and yet i try to sleep as early as 1030, but at times, the computer games are just too much alluring that you just compromise. Before you know it, oh man it's already 11 plus! Then i've got to race quickly to bed (although the beds just four steps away from the computer) and quickly bring myself into sleep.

Unfortunately, i havent master the skill of getting into sleep within 5 minutes.. But i know my brother can! He could amazingly lie down on his bed, close his eyes and after about 5 minutes, he has already left for dreamland. Brilliant!

Okay, i feel kind of hungry right now, but i haven't really decide on what i should eat yet. Anyway, i'm ending this entry here.

(Anybody going out later? Hey it's a friday! Call me! -hint- )

If you were mine..

If you were mine,

I'd be your everything and you'd be the only thing that I would ever need.

If you were mine,

I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

Ohhh Yeaaa

Everything I dreamed about

Everything that I talked about

One thing I can't live without

I wanna get closer to you

Can't stand being far away

Knowing that you don't feel the same way

Questioning bring tears to your eyes

If you were mine,
I'd be your everything and you'd be the only thing that I would ever need.
If you were mine,
I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

Ohhh Yeaaa

All words I sing about

All that is that I write about

Only thing I wanna hear about

So that I can get closer to you

I know that there is someone else, but he's only thinking of himself

Doesn't make any sense for you to be lonely

If you were mine,

I'd be your everything and you'd be the only thing that I would ever need.

If you were mine,

I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

Ohhh Yeaaa

Let me be the one to share your hopes and dreams with

You'll never be alone again, cuz' I will hold you endlessly

Please don't be afraid to let your brokenheart guide you

Into these open arms that long to surround you, baby!!

If you were mine,
I'd be your everything and you'd be the only thing that I would ever need.
If you were mine,
I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

words in red are the words i am trying to expressed but unable to do it..anymore..i meant it, every word..

When the days are gloom...

I wish i could blog about the distressing situation that's occuring in my home now. But i guess it's not so glam to talk about it anyway. So better not.

Tears were shed, insults and curses have been thrown at each other. I pray for a better day tomorrow and that everything in my family will resume to it's original positive state as soon as possible.

Anyway, today's a thursday and in a couple of hours time, friday's going to come. And that means that it's nearing the weekends, but i guess it wouldn't be too much of a happy weekend. Family internal problems, and a foreseen unproductive friday after work.

Why such a despondant statement? Well...it's simple, after work i've got nobody that i could call out. Everybody's either having the big O's soon and they need to study, or it's just plainly..i just can't call you out...pfft..

So if any of my good friends, if you're looking reading this particular entry, do open the doors of your heart and call me out. Leading a pretty sad, monotonous life for now..i hope.

Working day.

i failed to ignore the voice behind my head. It compelled me into writing this entry, when the computer screen is tempting and starring blankly at me, telling me to quickly fill something in my blog. I can't help it so here it is...

Now, i'm at work. Decided to take a little breather for awhile from all that working. Work's been pretty fine for the day except that there is this bloody irritating colleague of mine that is really driving me up the wall. He keeps 'commanding' me to do things and i'm sorry i don't really take it very positively, when someone tries to portray me as if i'm not doing my work. I really hate it and it's getting up my nerves. Ergh!

I might be soooo much younger than you but i am sensible enough to complete my job.

Anyway, it's about an hour plus left until i get off from work. Today's my dad's birthday! So HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! -a can of beer to you, Cheers!- I'm elated, because there will surely be good dinner when i get home tonight!

Oh yes, i definitely have to honour my God here. Well, i thank him for giving me preferably good results! And because of my preferably good results, i'll be getting an ipod video! Sweet! So thanks God first and then Dad!

I can't bear to leave this entry now, but i've got to. Just in case some bugger comes up to me and says, "w-w-w-w-what's this? Is that your work? Have you found the casenotes that i need? Go and do your work first, don't keep doing other things.", "Have you gotten the casenotes? You better quickly go, if not the dental clinic closes." (Basket, I just got onto my email you slut. And i was doing my work, bitch, you surely got a problem with waiting. SHUT UP.)

Laters.

new ipod or ipod nano?

i can't decide which one i should get, ipod nano or the new ipod? any comments anyone? convince me!

Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry)

For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so
cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long
(i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games
(silly games)
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state
(inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

Beau.

i have never thought that this would actually happen to me. I always knew you'd be there for me. But i've never thought that you would actually mean so much to me. Realisation has brought upon me the revelation that i can no longer take you for granted and, that you have always been standing there but i could not see.

Now i've seen it, if you could only see how much you mean to me. Now I think of you everyday, every minute i'm missing you. For that i'm more than certain about my feelings.

But i guess it's fine, you would soon realise it and you will know what i mean. It's not too long before you'd discover.

As for me, i have to prepare myself for the good or for the bad? Of course it would be for the worst because the best has been prepared. Even if things do not turn out the way i'd like it to go, i'll be happy for you and hopefully we'll still be close friends.

If i cant have you, let me still cling on to the friendship that we have moulded and nurtured through the years.

Even if you feel lousy or unpretty, allow me to tell you that you're still beautiful. Still beautiful to me in every way.

And last but not least, the bottom line of this whole idiosyncrasy is, I love you.

This entry goes out to you, my beau...

Where are you????

"(I know you are out there baby...somewhere)
There is someone out there for me (I know there is somebody out there)
I know she is waiting so patiently (yeah) can you tell me her name? (Somebody tell me her name)
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane
How does she laugh? How does she cry? What's the color of her eyes?
Does she even realize I'm here?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?
dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)

There is someone out there for me (there is someone out there for me)
I know she is waiting so patiently (so patient)
Can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane (that's right)

Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?"

i want to know...

Relaxed.

Currently in the office right now. Nothing much to do right now, actually just waiting for a colleague to complete some documents before i could prepare to send them over to the various clinical departments.

Before i continue, did i write about the current job that i am being employed? I don't recall but anyway, i didn't really know what i was up for until the very day when i actually reported to work. When i first walked into the human resource departments, i presumed that i would be working down there. I was elated, "great, reasonable pay and a nice working environment, this must be a blessing". Well, i was wrong. Wrong in the portion where i'd be working in that office. I was sent to another department, MRO the acronym for (Medical Record Office).

I must say that the type of job that i'd expected wasnt compromised drastically, just a little. In fact, it's pretty good. I've got a desk to myself, and i'm still working in an office. (That's why i can write an entry now, in the office.) Cool.

About my job, i'm a clerk, basically i just have to do some tracking of medical records for the various staff personnels who requires them. When i've found the files needed, i just have to check it in, out or transfer them. Yes, you could say it's more or less being like a librarian.

Hmm...interestingly, today's my "slackiest" day. I don't really have much files to track for or to complete any other paperwork. I even had time to sleep! That's what you call making money, without even putting in alot of effort you get cash for sleeping! Sweet.

Alright i shan't boast or gush about my job now.

Today's friday! Great! The weekend's near and so it's time to party! (I cant wait for Saturday actually.)

Signing off now!

Laters.

Chelsea sucks!

The name of this football team, "C.H.E.L.S.E.A F.C" never fails to piss me off because Chelsea equals to red. SO i see red. It's such a pain in the ass and a sore to the ears. They think they are damn good but i believe they will fall one day. They are being over ambitious, i wish they would knock their heads and get screwed in the ass when they dont get to win ALL the trophies(which i certainly doubt), as they have openly and shamelessly declare to the world.

Jose Mourinho. Okay now this name. I'm sure you all know who's this. Its the manager of that disgusting football club. I just cannot believe that he actually trademark his sickening name and he's going to get 1 million pounds because of that. SICK.

Ah, it's disgusting. I shan't continue or i'll really have to puke whatever that i'd previously ate.

I dont like Chelsea. They are bullshit.

Working.

Day three. The third day since i've started working. Work's been pretty okay. reasonable and manageable. In fact i thought it was pretty much relax compared to jobs in F&B industries.

I just reached the office actually.

Wish i could blog more but i've got to start working. I'm just afraid might just catch me in the act and deem me as slacking.

Laters!

Mission Accomplished.

I knew my God would help me get a job! YES! I got a job! I'm going to be working at Alexandra Hospital with effect from this coming Monday but until when, i'm not very sure and will be confirmed again. The pay's not bad, 6 dollars an hour and if you work for more than 42 hours a week, you'd get one and half times the pay for the subsequent overtime hours. And the more lucrative part of it all, is that when you work on a weekend, the pay's double!

I look forward to Monday and hopefully i'd be able to acquire some new and interesting experiences through this job!

Thanks mum and God! I owe you.

Man, when i get my first pay, i'll have to tithe 10 percent of it to God first and then treat my parents and grandmama to some lunch or dinner. (Don't worry! Mich i'll get you a waterfall or a flaming lambho!)

Hmm i just got home from supper with parents. I ate quite a lot. Had a bowl of wanton noodles and another delicious bowl of prawn noodles and i just ate these irresistable, aroma mouth-watering chicken wings. Nice! -belches-

It's really late, time for bed. Laters then.

I know everything in this world was rented to me, even the air that i breathe. God, you gave a me job, wouldnt you give me an angel too?

job hunting escapade part 2

'tick, tick, tick.....' Time is ticking away...time's up! I really need a job soon! If not i'd be pretty much deprived and restricted! A week's almost up and i urgently need to get a decent job so that i could have some necessary cash to do and buy things! And the mum and dad are not really helping, as the idea of still giving me allowance aren't very favourable to them as it's the holidays.

I think i might need some money to start partying and also, i'm intending to wipe my whole wardrobe out for a new set of clothes. The chosen clothes have already been targetted, but the money isn't rolling in at all. Jobless.

Anyway, i went around more intensely than yesterday to job scout.

I've finally come to a conclusion that guys are not getting many good stuff in Singapore. The girls are getting MORE and the better jobs! For every newspaper that i've turned, ever advertisement that are being posted on the net and every other advertisements pasted around the street, 70% of the temporary jobs are targetted at WOMEN.

Why this conclusion? First you walk around the streets and when you see an advertisement that's being pasted flat on the glass panel, it screams, "Part/Full Time Sales Assistant wanted". Okay it might look very attractive and all, but when you move closer over to the advertisement, to go through the prerequisites and when you thought you could actually have the opportunity to go into the stall and perhaps enquire if they still need people, just one phrase, one phrase to bring your hopes to smithereens, "female working environment(in a more crude form, guys, we are only looking for girls.)". So when your hopes are shattered, the light in your eyes slips away instantaneously, and you curse and swear because that was a fatality move. The advertisement was easy to comprehend, and you've got to turn around and scout for more jobs.

Next, you stumble upon this advertisement while you were searching for a job online, and it says, "Temp Admin Asst - 2 month". And you thought, sweet, just what i need, and then you click on the ad, the screen refreshes and brings you to a new page with more details elaborated on that particular job, so the first thing you'd see on details that seems to explode in your face, "$8.50/hr". Lucrative! Again, your eyes sparkle with delight, and so you thought it is more than worth it to actually go through the details from the top. Then that killer phrase slams into the centre of the screen, "FEMALE WORKING ENVIRONMENT".

Mum, could you look for a more suitable job for me?

Pfft.

I have got to get a job pretty soon. SO if any of you who have knowledge of any, please inform me first!

Also, i went over to NUM(New Urban Male). Hmm i think i should leave this for later, just in case i get the job. If not... make a helluva big deal on the blog! (Cross my fingers and hope that it wouldn't become some case of libel.)

Anyway, i'll be going on job hunt part 3 tomorrow, hopefully i'd come back with more jobs and Recruit better have more attractive job advertisement tomorrow!

Then again, I'm sure my God will provide me right?

Okay, it's about 1 o'clock already. Time to head off for bed.

if i had my angel, i'd write her a message everyday. i promise.

job hunting escapade

Oh no! i totally forgot about this, but i have to wish Jillian a very very belated birthday! And i thought the party was pretty fun, especially having a bouncy castle over at your house!

I think brotherhood should invest in the bouncy castle during somebody's eighteen birthday... -hint-

One week has passed since the 2 months holiday started. I guess i'd have pretty much enjoyed it, nothing beats the smell of the holidays after you've studied and slog the month before the holidays. Sweet! Then again, i don't think i'll be bumming my 2 months holiday away, i'm currently trying to look for a job.

It's so tough to look for a suitable job. It seems as if i'd earn money by just waiting for them to return a call. Calling up various companies up and enquiring from these job agencies if they could accomodate any part time job for about two months? Actually i'm more choosy than, 'any'.

I'm looking for jobs that doesnt require me to work during the weekends, to be able to pay me at least 6 dollars an hour, that i don't have to lurk around the streets, approaching people like an irritant. Currently, i've appealed and sent some resumes to these job agencies if they could get me a job as a temporary data entry assistant or an administrative staff. Hopefully, they wouldn't pass me by and totally forget that there's still one more soul here who needs to occupy his time and earn some money.

Gosh...

Can somebody try to understand me a little? Damn this shit.

angel

i need an angel, God would you send me one?

hungry...

im hungry..i need some food... (rummages through the fridge, scanning high and low but, nothing). somebody feed me!

emotional music video

Heard of this chinese song called tong hua? I'm not a fan of chinese songs but this song's really nice, be sure to catch the MTV for it. And im sure that this song has existed for ages and i've just got to know about it, but nonetheless! If you could get a hold on the MTV, take a look at it! It's emotional, that's why it's nice.

Shine On

I've given every
moment I had
still I could never
seem to keep up
with you
you're done with one mile and on to
another one
thousand
still I could never seem to keep up with you

I know you'll be better off without me when im gone
You know your
You're beautiful
Shine on you were made to shine on
and you know I love you
and even if we can or cant be friends
I'll be with you until
the very end so
Shine on
You were made to

Its keepin me awake every night But i can never seem to give up on you

I send up a prayer then I'm on to another one thousand
But i can never seem to give up on you
I know you
you'll be better off without me when I'm gone You know your, your beautiful
Shine on you were made to shine on
and you know I love you
and even if we can or cant be friends
I'll be with you until
the very end so
Shine on
You were made to
Nobody's wrong Nobody's right
keep movin on
Shine on you were made to
shine on and you know i love you
and even if we can or cant be friends
you're gunna be brighter then you've ever been so shine on
you're gonna be just fine oohh
you're gunna be alright love
you're gonna be just fine
you're gunna be alright love

Play time!

Finally, the moment has arrived! The day i could relax and be stress-free until a month later! The exams are finally over! Very happy. Now, i can do what i want to do at my own time and free will!

Yesterday's paper was on multimedia computer, thank God it was a pretty easy paper. Some students completed the paper in the time span of about 30 minutes! The paper was supposed to be for 2 hours that is. Well, i completed it in an hour plus.

Here's a brief account on what i did after the exams. I went out with an initial group of five people but at the end, we ended up with only three persons. Sadly, i'm the only singled and available person in the entire group. Freaking lightbulb! But nonetheless, at least a pair of couple left us, or rather we've decided to abandon them. So we hope you had fun yeah, the two of you!

So leaving with the three of us, we proceeded on to sakae sushi, at orchard! Yes, that was what i was craving for. Funny as it is, we had been debating where to eat, either sakae or breeks. Because some of them didnt want to eat japanese food, but still we ended up at sakae! Perfect.
And then after dinner, we strolled around for awhile and then i left them to meet another friend. So i got back home at about midnight?

Okay, today's a new day, a new wave of activities! To keep everything in a nutshell, i'll be going over to ariel's place to play xbox and later on perhaps, some swimming and exercising! I'm done with this entry, i'm going to read today's newspapers!

Later.

good time.

The projects have all been submitted, deadlines and all assignments have been met. Five exams have passed and now left with one more to go. Which is good because the major exams are all over and for the last, it's not too much of a killer.

Hmm, i've never taken so many papers and felt that the difficulty of the papers are at the moderate level. So it might be a consolation, but it could meant that i might achieve results that puts me in mediocrity.

So the last paper will be this coming monday and after that, holidays! Perfect! Just what i need! I need a break from all this studying to recuperate the energy that i'll be conserving for the next lap of this year.

This sucks. Somehow, i'm down with flu, cough and sore throat! This is terrible. The holidays are nearing and now im sick? This cannot be true! NO! I'd better get well soon. God, help me?

Oh no, i've got brain traffic jam, the words are not coming out, i cant think of what to write now. I know there are alot to update but the brain isnt thinking! I feel like i've been stopped in mid-air by some repulsive force that's stopping me from generating more things to blog about!

I'm leaving. Will update again.

my stupidity

if i'd only knew that by going down to 'meet' all of you was to merely fellowship with a bloody computer i would just stay home because i've got a computer at home and i've already fellowship with it more than enough. Thank you so much for wasting my time, you rock.

And then you wish...

Isn't it so true that you only do cherish, treasure and love the person you truly love until you've lost them or you allow them to slip by you? And yet, you just don't learn from it? I think i'm one victim. But then again, somethings were allowed to slipped by for a reason that should benefit us in someone way. Funny?

a breathing gap.

Finally, i've got sometime for myself to at least update my all-so-stagnant-blog. As you've reckoned, i've been busy with the school work. Projects, deadlines, assignments and exams to study for, etc.
Anyway, i'm left with my digital media project for now, should be able to complete it in a couple of days. I just can't wait to complete it so i could peacefully do my other revisions. School's been hectic for the past two weeks. There was endless loads of work, every night i complete some work, the next day i'll get more.
So this is poly life. B-U-S-Y
But i know i've got to perservere for just a couple of more weeks, because the reward of about 2 months of holidays will be coming up pretty soon. So that's a good motivation, yet a consolation prize.
As you all know, tomorrow or the day after is teacher's day. So Happy Teacher's Day to the teachers around the world! Cheers. So, a group of seven of us went back to barker today. Some wore the uniform, some didn't. Oh but i did. Anyway, we visited our newly crowned vice-principal, who was our former english teacher, the principal himself, our form teacher, lit teachers and i think that's about it. I DO MISS BARKER. I miss those days that i was in barker road, having all the fun that i can never receive from poly. Secondary school days are just simply fun, you make friends that would stand by you and friends that you could keep for all the years of your life. As i was on the journey to barker, my school's moto came into my mind, "Grow Old Along With Me, The Best Is Yet To Be".
Indeed it's so true, i've made friends with students and teachers that i could grow old along with. Really appreciate everything that has been passed down to me in barker road, the culture, the unique style.
Okay, i've got to end here. Got to get back to reality and start working on the project.

Later.

A simple saturday.

Went to cut my hair yesterday and i'm pretty contented with it. Though it was a hairstyle that does not follow my initial plans. As i was browsing through the book, i stumbled upon this particular hairstyle which is pretty nice although it is really short and it'll will take me some time to grow back alot of hair.

I think the hairstylist at ST salon is good. She can cut nice hair.

Since i havent have much to update about anything, so i'd just give a short account of what i'll be doing today.
Well, i'll be heading down to church at about 2 for music practice. I'll be drumming for the cantonese service tomorrow. Today's my first day, so wish me that it'll go through smoothly! (Hopefully, my left leg wouldnt stop me froming playing.)

So after music practice, i've got church service to attend then after that i think i'd be meeting sharon, if not then i'll just go out with my church peeps.

Yes! That's about it for the day.

Later.

Explosive air.

I'm not quite sure what's wrong with today. There seems to be some explosive air in Singapore today. Everyone around me seems to crackle with anger, not with delight. There must be something wrong today. In line with the stupid 7th month shit that the chinese believe in, i really hate it. I dread this month. First i got hit by some shit ass car and now my whole family seems as if the world have just stepped on their bloody toes.

My dad seems easily agitated, my mum is as usual, easily angered but today the rate of change seems a little unusual. Both my parents are mood swinging like a see-saw. My brother's a blood fag, who can't seem to converse properly with others. That bugger really needs to learn some good and polite conversational skills.

I'm not afraid of him looking at this entry. Because i really think you need to reply people politely, just as others do to you. Just a word of advice, you better watch your language that you chose to use, dont use it blindly without any proper understanding of the words. Trust me, if you continue your shit ways, you'll get whacked up by people and i say you deserve it because you dont know when to shut up. GROW UP.

I'm pretty peeved because of their unprecedented behaviour for the day. I really feel like going out of this house for the day and come home at night. Never knew that staying at home could be like a house turned hell hole instead. Literally.

In the afternoon, i was screamed at by my dad, well maybe i deserved it but I was confused and bewildered by the family's overall mood ever since the day started. I dont understand my dad sometimes, he can talk to anybody in the world politely, but he can never talk to my mum nicely and then that's where the world will start to crumble and a fight is triggered.

Maybe my mum's really sarcastic most of the time when she opens up her mouth, but i believe that my dad should just talk to her nicely when she isnt sarcastic and all. The ironic thing about all these, is that they are often in the opposite of moods when they are conversing.

My mum just screamed at my maid and i really dont understand why the hell does she always like to associate words or connotations of death into her sentences. I feel at times, she contradicts what she tells my maid to do, for example, when my mum tells my maid to ask her anything if she doesnt know. But when my maid ask her, she gives her a responce that to her, seems all too rhetorical, "what do you think?". Tell me, is that menopause or pms? I dont know.

Enough! I need some peace people. I really dont feel good enough being anchored down to home because of my darn injury. I'm frustrated with it and all. Can't i just have my peace?

At this present moment, even when my brother and dad are out, the bloody tense atmosphere seems to lurk and linger around the house and i hate the feeling of it all. God i cry and plead, take away this tension, right now. Please!

I really pray for a better day tomorrow, because it's affecting me too much, i'm becoming angry and frustrated myself. Completely befuddled by everything that has happened today. Indeed, people's moods could be metaphorically compared to a wave or a tide, you dont know when it's coming up or going down unless you keep close observation. But, as for me i dont care, i have better things to bother about than this.

If i'm sick of all this shit, i'm sure it's about time that they should observe what is happening and feel my sentiments.

It's national day today, i want to wish the nation a very happy birthday! Happy Birthday Singapore!

I had enough ranting already, thanks. Good Bye.

Eye Candy

Did you all see rui en during ndp? She's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sweet-looking, cute and pretty! Rui en...

Bothering boredom.

It's really a torture just staying at home and you can do nuts. God please heal my leg as soon as possible so i may just do what i want to do again! And to even go to church! I've got to miss sentosa today...hate it. All because of my folly, im in such shit hole. God please heal my leg so i can go out, staying at home and listening to my unhappy and ever so easily agitated parents wouldnt help heal my injury, they will make it worse.

You're Beautiful

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Thank God.

Thank God i'm still alive and well.

I was almost knocked down by a car yesterday. Thank God that i didnt suffer much injuries except some slight abrasions on my elbow and my knee. But i've sprained my ankle. I don't know how'd i sprained it but i dont recall falling down after the car brushed passed me. All it felt was a strong push on my side and i realised that a car has actually hit me. I was dumbfounded with shock when i saw the car stopping in front of me.

I was trying to cross the road and was playing with my phone, trying to save a note in my phone and merely forgot that the road was a two-way road and become oblivious to the incoming cars on my side. So that was how i got injured.

The driver came out and asked if i was alright and all i could do was to respond with a hand signal that im alright and okay.

Just went to the doctor and the doctor said there's a hairline fracture on the bone connecting my last toe on my left foot. Thank God that it isn't major and will be able to recover in about three weeks time.

What an experience, this isn't the first time, it's the second time. I dont think i'll have a third chance again.

My folly, i'm still thinking to myself, why am i so careless?

Thank God for everything, for blessing me and saving my life. Lucky i believe in Jesus! =)

Patience is the key?

Have you ever felt so wasted? I don't mean drunk but you just feel so unaccomplished, you're not contented and there is this tugging inside you that's constantly rubbing off?

I feel so shitty and stupid now.

This was what happened. I was asked to go for some party called blase attitude at newsroom bar last night. This is my first time clubbing, or rather going to club publicly. When i was home, getting changed and ready to get out of the house, i just had this gut feeling that i wouldn't be able to get in, but this was too exciting for me to adhere to my instincts. Unfortunately, this gut feeling of mine was accurate, so i couldnt get in.

Not only was i unable to enter, i've just throwed sixteen dollars away. The sixteen dollars was for the cover charge.

There was about 15 of us and out of the 15, ronald and i were the only ones who couldnt get in, because we're underage. I'm not going into details about what happened to Ron, just to respect his privacy. But because of both of us, marcus, amos, leon and ian stayed outside with us most of the time. I feel so terrible that they didnt get to enjoy themselves fully because of us. I just want to thank them for even coming along with me. And ronald, sorry about it all but thank you for coming along with me.

Sometimes, i just dont understand humans, we are definitely fully aware that we do not have the capability of doing some things that's within our calibre but still, we insist on trying it and at the end when things don't go our way, we feel so unaccomplished and frustrated. Why can't i just wait for a few more months before i can get in legally? Eighteen's really not very far from now. Should have been more patient.

Indeed, as the axiom goes, "curiosity kills the cat". Teenagers are all brimming with curiosity, and i'm one, a teenager who has never seen the world inside a club and would dearly want to see the world inside.

I'm not blaming anyone, not myself, but i just need to vent this out so that i'd feel much better. But i've learned one lesson from this, never take the second step unless you're certain the first step will hold you through to the second one.

What an experience! I thought i'd get beginner's luck!

I'm ending here i've got to do my project due tomorrow. Cheers!

Amathe-logy.

My head hurts, my eyes are strained after seeing and manipulating with funny alphabets and numbrs. Yes, i was practicing some math, i've got math test tomorrow.

In my opinion, i feel that A math isn't that too tough, considering all the things i'm studying now is what was taught in A math during the secondary school days. Pretty contented and satisfied that i've understood logarithm and how'd you go about differentiating it. Not too tough!

So wish me some good luck that i'll be able to do the paper tomorrow. Though it's just a common test, but i want to score, to secure some marks that is totally essential for a person who is not a prodigy in math. But practicing will help!

Alright, just felt like blogging something short. I'm gone...




i miss you.

My head hurts, my eyes are strained after seeing and manipulating with funny alphabets and numbrs. Yes, i was practicing some math, i've got math test tomorrow.

In my opinion, i feel that A math isn't that too tough, considering all the things i'm studying now is what was taught in A math during the secondary school days. Pretty contented and satisfied that i've understood logarithm and how'd you go about differentiating it. Not too tough!

So wish me some good luck that i'll be able to do the paper tomorrow. Though it's just a common test, but i want to score, to secure some marks that is totally essential for a person who is not a prodigy in math. But practicing will help!

Alright, just felt like blogging something short. I'm gone...




i miss you.

Then i saw you.

Amidst the breezing crowd
traversing through the lucid clouds.
Still the sun shuns away from you.
You smiled.
Through the iridiscence,
light that streams into my eyes
i could feel you.
But is this it?

Konstantine.

I can't imagine all the people that you know
and the places that you go
when the lights are turned down low
and I don't understand all the things you've seen
but i'm slipping inbetween
you and your big dreams
it's always you
in my big dreams

and you tell me that it's over
wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clovers
and your restless, and i'm naked
you've gotta get out
you can't stand to see me shaking
no
could you let me go?
I didn't think so

and you don't wanna be here in the future
so you say the present's just a pleasent interruption to the past
and you don't wanna look much closer
cuz your afraid to find out all this hope
you had sent into the sky by now had crashed
and it did
because of me

and then you bring me home
afraid to find out that you're alone
and i'm sleeping in your living room
but we don't have much room to live

I had these dreams that i learned to play guitar
maybe cross the country
become a rock star
and there was hope in me that i could take you there
but dammit you're so young
well i don't think i care
and if i hurt you
then i'm sorry
please don't think that this was easy

then you bring me home
cuz we both know what it's like to be alone
and i'm dreaming in your living room
but we don't have much room to live

and konstantine is walking down the stairs
doesn't she look good
standing in her underwear
and i was thinking
what i was thinking
we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere

my Konstantine came walking down the stairs
and all that i could do is touch her long blonde hair
and i've been thinking
it hurts me thinking that these nights
when we were drinking no they never got us anywhere
no

this is because i can spell konfusion with a k
and i like it
it's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it
it's to jimmy eat world and those nights in my car
when the first star you see may not be a star
I'm not your star
isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant

and if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what i did to you
and all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock
it's 11:11
and now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
you'll always be my konstantine

konstantine, they'll never hurt you like i do
no they'll never hurt you like i do
no, no, no no no no no no

this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
hey
you know
you keep me up in bed
this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things i did
hey
maybe
baby
you could keep me up in bed
my Konstantine
spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen
and i said
did you know i missed you?
oh god i miss you

and then you bring me home
and we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no
and you'll kiss me in your living room
i know
you'll miss me in your living room
cuz these nights i think maybe that i'll miss you in my living room
we don't have much room
i said does anybody need that room?
because we all need a little more room
to live

my Konstantine

tag board changed

Okay. I've just changed my tag-board so it shouldnt interfere the uploading of my blog. So people, tag after you've visited my blog! Alright? Okay, good.

later.

She Changes Your Mind

She changes your mind when you see the joy in her eyes.
It makes you feel.
She draws your eyes from all the things that have made you numb and makes you feel.
If I could open up my heart and let her out I would never have to sing her name aloud.
It was your "hello" that kept me hanging on every word
and you "good-bye" that keeps me listening for your voice around each corner.
I'll sing songs to help me stay up all night. I don't want to go to sleep.
I'll sing songs and hope you're listening carefully and know exactly what I mean.
It's the song you must seek out when your night has just begun.
In the distance you can find the lips from which was sung a melody.

Null timeline.

Days have past,
months have gone,
years have breezed by,
something's still amiss.
somebody bring me
the last piece for this
vexing void.
Please.
Or is it all in the head?
And expectations?
O God help me!

To see them again.

Then you see an incoming,

captures in your pupil
registers into the memory
you stare, tracing and followed.
Then again, she walks away,
out of side
or the opposite?
Impelling to approach that direction
and you realised,
Just another passer-by.
Hope to see them again.

Third day of the term break and it's moving on smoothly. Which is good. Just completed the exercises for the fourth chapter on electronic fundamentals. So that makes it four chapters down and two more chapters to go!Good.

Still got a whole load of things undone. Such as the second communication skills project and to revise on multimedia computers.

Hmm think i'll probably be meeting up with nathan soon to go to the newly opened national library and bugis. Then after that at about three, i've got swimming. Competition's this saturday, though i don't think i'll be winning any medals or even hitting the fourth position, at least i got the exposure.

So after training, i'll be meeting up with the people i met during the sports camp for dinner. So today's wrapped up with activities and i'm pleased with that. At least a day with some purpose.

I'm ending here, got to start on math now.

Later.

Strolling down the uniformed corridors
staring ahead and scans,
still the same, void.
But it's brimmed with forlorn
and lonelines.
Anybody walking by to stay? nobody.
So you thought you would just
get on your feet and do something
physical.

to iylia, in short.

Since my good ol' faithful friend took some time to write a short testimonial on his blog for me, i shall just follow suit; i definitely owe him. So here's one for you, iylia.

I admit and apologise that i'd forgotten your birthday and really in deep regret about it. But nonetheless, though this might be really late. Once again, have a blessed happy birthday! Indeed i'm glad that i've got to know you for 5 years and we are the faithful B3s! Nobody can beat us! It's royal flush! Don't worry, iylia you're still looking good with your new hair and all. It's nice. Anyway, I'm glad that you're pretty much enjoying life in your poly. And so a new birthday, a year older, i'm sure you've moved away from your moodswings, which is good to hear. Try to quit smoking yeah, it's not good for health and you know it. Don't worry i won't give you a whole lecture about how smoking can harm your health, but i hope the intention of quitting will arrive soon. Lastly, im happy that we're in the same clique, and i'm glad to grow up with you for 5 years too! P.S. what mother thing? tell me! I can't remember.

confession part 3

okay peeps. here's my confession, i've lost some pics due to my folly, i edited the pics on the camera itself before extracting it onto the computer. So i'm sorry, so here's my confession part 3. enjoy people.
part 3

No One Really Wins

Welcome love, I have made a place for you here
And I know every word they say
I don't want it want to make you change

Change if you want, but don't you go and change for me
I can love you as you are
I didn't mean to make you want to leave

In the fight between my heart and mind
No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time

If you don't find a love you want
If I have acted ungracefully
I don't want to see you go
I never meant to make you want to leave

Go if you want
Make your way straight to the door
I hope that you will pack before you go
Cause grace always packs before it starts to leave

In the fight between my heart and mind
No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time
In the endless fight of grace and pride
I don't want to win this time
I don't want to win this time

Change if you want, but don't you go and change for me
I will love you as you are
I didn't mean to make you want to leave

It's a fight between my heart and mind
No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time
In the endless fight of grace and pride
I don't want to win this time
I don't want to win this time
In the endless fight of grace and pride
I don't want to win this time
I don't want to win this time

Today's a sunday. Another week has just passed and the term break starts now.

Last week i was at a sports leader camp, it was for three days and two nights. I'll remember this camp because on the first night, i was trampled with fatigue but i didnt had enough sleep and rest. The first day of the camp was very boring though, all i could recall was just sitting down, cross-legged, cramp, numb and sore on the ass for almost the whole day. Until night time, after dinner we watched saw. Though it's packed with gore and violence but it's a really good show. A fantastic plot twist.

That wasn't the horror, the horror came the next activity, after watching saw when i didnt get enough sleep. The activities for that day ended at 5 am in the morning, the next day. Madness. What the hell did i do? I don't really know either except that i've been carrying people behind my back and going up the stairs round and round like an idiot. That's about all i could remember. I was too tired to think or do anything.

And the next day? We had to wake up at 8? What is that man? 3 hours of sleep? In fact, i didnt even get a full 3 hours of sleep. I think it's only about 2 hours or less. So the next day, after washing up and all the stuff, we had physical training. Trust me, doing push ups on a track ground is a no no for me. Half of my little energy remained was given away not to the push ups, but to enduring the pain on my palm. Thank God, after that we had water activities! Love it.

To say the camp on the overall was pretty okay. Made some new friends.

Last night i was suppose to go for some clubbing event, but didn't go. Somehow, i regretted not going. Because most of my friends are going and yes, it's time to catch up with some of them. I'm sure last night's event was pretty much happening. I didn't go because of four factors. Firstly, you require a ticket but i dont have one. Secondly, the ticket cost 14-15 dollars but i dont have that cash. Moreover, you need extra cash on top of the 15 dollars. Thirdly, i'm underage, so how do i get in or how are my friends going to get me in? Fourthly, i think it's right that i shouldn't go yet?

I guess i'll have my time and fun soon, anyway.

Well i've got church to go for now.

later.

If you were my girl.

If you were my girl
If you were my girl

Aching to see the sun again
Aching to see your eyes to see how they shine
They make this world a better place

Aching to see you smile again
Aching to hear you laugh and say I'm not dreaming

When you caress my hair
Your touch so warm and gentle baby
Then I can see true happiness at last

If you would be my girlfriend
Then I would be in heaven
Then I could do anything
Id stand on my head and sing if you were my girl (girlfriend)

If you would be my girlfriend
Then I would be in heaven
Then I could do anything
Id stand on my head and sing if you were my girl
(If you were my girl, If you were my girl)

I wish I could feel your lips right now
Wish I could let my hand
Glide through your hair
I wish I could softly hold your hand

I wish I could tell you every dream
I wish I could tell you everything that I feel
I wish I could tell you that
I need you here to kiss me baby
If only I could get my self to say

If you would be my girlfriend
Then I would be in heaven
Then I could do anything
Id stand on my head and sing if you were my girl(girlfriend)

If you would be my girlfriend (my girlfriend)
Then I would be in heaven (heaven)
Then I could do anything
Id stand on my head and sing if you were my girl
(If you were my girl, If you were my girl)

There are so many beautiful (so many girls) girls in the world
But there's only one girl that I want (So many girls)
And Ive chosen today that I cant ever stay
Unless I can stay here with you

If you would be my girlfriend (Girlfriend)
Then I would be in heaven (In heaven, In heaven)
Then I could do anything
Id stand on my head and sing if you were my girl (Girlfriend)
If you were my girl

If you would be my girlfriend
(If you were my girl, Id give you the world)
Then I would be in heaven (Yeah, yeah)
Then I could do anything
I’d stand on my head and sing if you were my girl(girlfriend)
If you were my girl

If you would be my girlfriend (My girlfriend)
Then I would be in heaven (In heaven)
Then I could do anything
I’d stand on my head and sing (you know Id do it)
If you were my girl

If you were my girl
If you were my girl
If you were my girl (If you were my)
If you were my girl
If you were my girl

If you were my girl

sentosa pictures

here are the pictures taken at sentosa with brotherhood. =) enjoy all!
sentosa part 2
Note: please get an imagestation account so you can access all the other picture sites as im going to change all the picture sites to imagestation. cheers.

an account of life in a few short days

Just completed my communications skills assignment. It is an online assignment and i am suppose to post my comments about a particular discussion topic which was about describing an incident when you were invited to a friend's party and you felt like a stranger over there. Nothing much of a big feat right? I thought so too.(not bragging, im sure anyone could complete it)

Haven't been blogging for a week, so i'll make sure this entry would be lengthy. Just completed my personal development project today and i'm pretty please with it. The teacher gave us quite a good and positive feedback, "Well done, good job!" So i'm sure for this project, we should get a good grade? (WE, is because it was a group effort)

I wasnt busy because of this project but mainly, it was because of helping out a group of friends who are in their third year in Digital Film and Media, to complete their final year project. I was auditioned and surprisingly, i got through the audition and agreed to be their actor in filming.

Of course it wasnt't easy at all and most of the time, when the shootings were too long, i'd become pretty much intolerant and impatient. I never knew acting could be so draining and tiring. Even just to do a simple walking from one point to another that is to be shot at different angles, needs to be re-taken and repeated so many times.

What's more when you are required to do a conversation scene and it needs to be zoomed in, zoomed out or taken at different angles? Exhausting i must say, but it was much a fun experience.

Now, i could understand what my auntie and uncle has gone through. It really is quite intimidating and pressurising at times to perform actions in front of a camera that would be staring at you, capturing every move and every expression you make. I really wonder how some actors or actress have the boldness to actually kiss or strip in front of the camera.

There was a holding hand scene and to me i thought it was pretty scary, especially when you're aware that there's a camera taking all of it down!

Anyway, i went for voice dubbing today and it was pretty interesting, which was quite a good experience too! Now, i'm just waiting for the crew to complete the production. Just can't wait to see the whole complete story, because i dont even know what was the whole story about.

Something for the brotherhood, who went to Sentosa on saturday. Just want to tell the guys that, perceiving from the Sentosa trip. No doubt that we might not be able to see each other often anymore or meet up regularly, organising such group gatherings, it exudes the unity of our clique. May we have more of such group outings so that we could constantly keep in touch with each other. I really enjoyed myself with you guys in Sentosa. Take care bros!

Today's monday, school was fine , as usual it is always blue. Just learned that i've got to hand in my business plan project by next week and we havent even started on it. And after typing out this entry, i've got to complete my multimedia computer project as much as possible. Stressful, but it's still manageable.

I guess the only module i find it a little difficult is engineering mathematics. I'm not quite sure whether is it because of other people who somehow psychological drilled it into my head that differentiation and integration is tough if you did not take it during your secondary school years. Or is it just a little hard to handle by its nature as i'm still a greenhorn to it?

I've just realised that six weeks of school have just breezed past me and the term break is coming in 2 weeks time, including this week. That's an unfortune in disguise of a holiday. Because after the holidays, say hello to all the upcoming common test. Yes, it sucks. No doubt.

Nobody knows, but i'm sure i have got somethings to catch up on. Many more.

After entering into poly for six weeks, i still am not able to get myself a place in the school, i didnt mean that i am an outcast but more of getting myself in a clique. As it was in ACS(Barker Road). Somehow, i also feel that i don't have got many friends around me anymore. My social circle seems to come to a halt and become stagnant for a while. I know it's just too early to tell or say anything still, but with my own eyes i see people in huge cliques or groups and i'm sure they are all from the same class. Maybe what i perceive is only what i receive from the business side and not from the IT side as they started school a month earlier, so maybe they have more or less a higher standing when it comes to being well orientated around the school?

I dont know, but in short, i feel lonely. Lonely not just in terms of not having enough friends in school, but just having someone of the opposite gender. Who could be just by your side and somehow always there for you. I really do feel miserable in that sense. Of course i would say that my surroundings would have pressured me to feel this way but i know deep inside there is a void, a physical/emotional void that can only be covered by a partner.

I know i've got to be patient and wait. But i think the wait is just too long. It's been so long already. Being that long, i thought one would already adapt to the life they are currently living. As for me, i am still not comfortable with this single life that I lead. Ironically, i dont believe in fate but i don't feel fated that i should stay single.

I've lost it once, maybe twice and i've learned something from it but still, i still feel the aftermath of everything. I never thought rejection, whether it's subtle or direct would be so hurting at times. People would often tell me these words of cliche, "why give up the whole forest just because of a tree?" It totally seems logical, but have you actually thought that getting married or being in love requires sacrificing. When you love someone, it's worth it.

I am certain this time about my feelings, it wasnt something that was fugacious. It stayed, took roots and further developed. I'm sure it was pretty luculent even before i've got the opportunity to express it to her.

Maybe it was a wrong move to conclude so quickly, maybe i was maudlin. But passion drives a person, how do i remove this new passion and make defunct yet again?

If possible, I hope she would reply and give me an answer soon.

Well, i'd pray to God and i trust that once again, he would bring someone that would fill that physical/emotional void. But still i thank God for giving me whatever that he has given me.

Thank God that it doesnt affect me when im studying. Thank you.

Just completed my communications skills assignment. It is an online assignment and i am suppose to post my comments about a particular discussion topic which was about describing an incident when you were invited to a friend's party and you felt like a stranger over there. Nothing much of a big feat right? I thought so too.(not bragging, im sure anyone could complete it)

Haven't been blogging for a week, so i'll make sure this entry would be lengthy. Just completed my personal development project today and i'm pretty please with it. The teacher gave us quite a good and positive feedback, "Well done, good job!" So i'm sure for this project, we should get a good grade? (WE, is because it was a group effort)

I wasnt busy because of this project but mainly, it was because of helping out a group of friends who are in their third year in Digital Film and Media, to complete their final year project. I was auditioned and surprisingly, i got through the audition and agreed to be their actor in filming.

Of course it wasnt't easy at all and most of the time, when the shootings were too long, i'd become pretty much intolerant and impatient. I never knew acting could be so draining and tiring. Even just to do a simple walking from one point to another that is to be shot at different angles, needs to be re-taken and repeated so many times.

What's more when you are required to do a conversation scene and it needs to be zoomed in, zoomed out or taken at different angles? Exhausting i must say, but it was much a fun experience.

Now, i could understand what my auntie and uncle has gone through. It really is quite intimidating and pressurising at times to perform actions in front of a camera that would be staring at you, capturing every move and every expression you make. I really wonder how some actors or actress have the boldness to actually kiss or strip in front of the camera.

There was a holding hand scene and to me i thought it was pretty scary, especially when you're aware that there's a camera taking all of it down!

Anyway, i went for voice dubbing today and it was pretty interesting, which was quite a good experience too! Now, i'm just waiting for the crew to complete the production. Just can't wait to see the whole complete story, because i dont even know what was the whole story about.

Something for the brotherhood, who went to Sentosa on saturday. Just want to tell the guys that, perceiving from the Sentosa trip. No doubt that we might not be able to see each other often anymore or meet up regularly, organising such group gatherings, it exudes the unity of our clique. May we have more of such group outings so that we could constantly keep in touch with each other. I really enjoyed myself with you guys in Sentosa. Take care bros!

Today's monday, school was fine , as usual it is always blue. Just learned that i've got to hand in my business plan project by next week and we havent even started on it. And after typing out this entry, i've got to complete my multimedia computer project as much as possible. Stressful, but it's still manageable.

I guess the only module i find it a little difficult is engineering mathematics. I'm not quite sure whether is it because of other people who somehow psychological drilled it into my head that differentiation and integration is tough if you did not take it during your secondary school years. Or is it just a little hard to handle by its nature as i'm still a greenhorn to it?

I've just realised that six weeks of school have just breezed past me and the term break is coming in 2 weeks time, including this week. That's an unfortune in disguise of a holiday. Because after the holidays, say hello to all the upcoming common test. Yes, it sucks. No doubt.

Nobody knows, but i'm sure i have got somethings to catch up on. Many more.

After entering into poly for six weeks, i still am not able to get myself a place in the school, i didnt mean that i am an outcast but more of getting myself in a clique. As it was in ACS(Barker Road). Somehow, i also feel that i don't have got many friends around me anymore. My social circle seems to come to a halt and become stagnant for a while. I know it's just too early to tell or say anything still, but with my own eyes i see people in huge cliques or groups and i'm sure they are all from the same class. Maybe what i perceive is only what i receive from the business side and not from the IT side as they started school a month earlier, so maybe they have more or less a higher standing when it comes to being well orientated around the school?

I dont know, but in short, i feel lonely. Lonely not just in terms of not having enough friends in school, but just having someone of the opposite gender. Who could be just by your side and somehow always there for you. I really do feel miserable in that sense. Of course i would say that my surroundings would have pressured me to feel this way but i know deep inside there is a void, a physical/emotional void that can only be covered by a partner.

I know i've got to be patient and wait. But i think the wait is just too long. It's been so long already. Being that long, i thought one would already adapt to the life they are currently living. As for me, i am still not comfortable with this single life that I lead. Ironically, i dont believe in fate but i don't feel fated that i should stay single.

I've lost it once, maybe twice and i've learned something from it but still, i still feel the aftermath of everything. I never thought rejection, whether it's subtle or direct would be so hurting at times. People would often tell me these words of cliche, "why give up the whole forest just because of a tree?" It totally seems logical, but have you actually thought that getting married or being in love requires sacrificing. When you love someone, it's worth it.

I am certain this time about my feelings, it wasnt something that was fugacious. It stayed, took roots and further developed. I'm sure it was pretty luculent even before i've got the opportunity to express it to her.

Maybe it was a wrong move to conclude so quickly, maybe i was maudlin. But passion drives a person, how do i remove this new passion and make defunct yet again?

Well, i'd pray to God and i trust that once again, he would bring someone that would fill that physical/emotional void. But still i thank God for giving me whatever that he has given me.

Thank God that it doesnt affect me when im studying. Thank you.

i like you.

i may not be the first or the last one to tell you this and i reckon that you've probably heard these words umpteen times, maybe in different forms and words, but i'd like to say to you simply that i really do like you. And i'm sincerely am interested and serious about you. I don't dare to ask much from you but even if i am not given the opportunity to, i will still say its been great having you as a friend and the very least i could do is to let you know and be honest with you, with my feelings about you. in fact, by what i've been doing lately, i reckon you are already aware about me towards you. i don't play but i slowly am falling for you.

i'm definitely embracing and expecting for the worst to come but still at least this is one burden that will be off my chest soon. very soon.

when you're in school.

As im writing this entry. I'm currently having lessons on digital media and design. Hmm its going to last for three hours, i think i'd be drained by the end of the lesson. But still, i have to sit through it.

Anyway, i haven't ate anything yet, pretty hungry! Somebody feed me! Ah well, i'm going to watch a movie with ariel and ade! Damn, i can't wait to go! I haven't been out for a really long period of time! Likewise, i haven't got the opportunity to watched a movie ever since the last time which was about two months ago!

Okay, anyway i've got to stop here now! Because i want to explore this damn computer, perhaps it's loaded with lots of music! I need to spice my time in this class!

Later.

hurt.

why is it always that when you really love someone and at the end, all you get is hurts and pains at the end. when you dont really like the person, they're somewhat always really in love with you. why is it always so unfair. why is it... -tears slowly trickles down-

back to school?

It's been 2 weeks, almost close to 3 weeks since school started. NYP's alright. Thank God that my classmates arent as horrible as i imagined them to be. In fact, they are pretty normal, meaning they aren't 'beng' or 'lian'. Which is good and im happy about it. I'm adapting to my class pretty well now i must say.

Not much homework, but definitely there are homework, especially mathematics. It's so ironic, i thought that i could actually escape from abhorent math, but instead i'm being pulled back in. Into a tougher and more challenging level of mathematics. Currently, i'm studying some amath and a little bit of cmath. No joke, but its still manageable for now.

Anyway, all the projects have gradually surfaced after 2 weeks of school and it summed up to about four to five of them. And 2 of my classmates and i just started on one today, it is on multimedia computing and we've to do a report a length of 12-15 pages long about microprocessors and memory types. Not easy at all and very tempting. Because some of the informations and materials that we've found online were so good, and it fulfilled everything that we needed. I was so tempted to copy everything wholesale, but i daren't risk.

You know, teachers nowadays, sometimes they can be quite ass-ified and they might accuse you for plagiarism.

Apart from the workload, my timetable's pretty flexible and i dont have a regular time to go to school. For instance today, i've got to be in school by eight and i ended at twelve in the afternoon and for tomorrow i'll be starting school at twelve and will be ending at about six in the evening. I find it pretty alright, not very taxing or stressful in that sense.

A couple of days back, i went for 2 cca trials, although i signed up for about seven ccas and i dont know why. I repeat it's just signed up, not joining. The two ccas that i attended was swimming and dance respectively on two different days. And of course, i can't swim so i definitely wasn't selected for the school's primary swim team. As for dance, well i'm not quite sure the results will be out this coming friday, but i doubt i'll be chosen anyway. I think i screwed up the audition pretty badly.

I'm losing the touch, havent been dancing for a year and to dance again...rusty.

Okay i've got nothing more to say right now, it is a really short summary about my two to three weeks in school. When i'm in the mood again, i'll drop another post, till then.

later.

One Last Cry ='(

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
Ive gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess Im down to my last cry

Cry......

I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
Ive gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on.....

Im gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my
One last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
Ive gotta put you outta my mind for the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess Im down
I guess Im down
I guess Im down...
To my last cry...

nick's birthday pictures.

here's some of the pictures that were taken during nick's birthday. so, people enjoy! i'll be addiing more, as soon as i get them so do drop by often to see the updates, if there are any. nick's birthday 2005.

hello acs and may the force be with you.

Today's been a really good and lucrative day for me. It was packed with fun and excitement, totally ecstatic! That's why i am so compelled to write an entry by tonight. I must write it!

First thing first, my day started off at about 6 o'clock in the morning. Got up, changed and sped off to school! Which school you might ask, yes, i was going back to ACS(Barker Road)! heh. In fact, this going back was a planned trip, right about three to four days back? YEAP! Okay, let's see how many people went with back with us today! Practically, almost the whole brotherhood, me, leon, iylia, wilson, wei chang, adriel, mukund, daniel, darren, ronald, and auggie! And also adding to the list there were also lincoln, wayne and our seniors, amos and yicong aka worm! Yes, you're right, a big group, a very big group of 15!

Now, i'm going to talk about the short but no doubt hilarious and exciting time we had in school! All of us met up in school at about 710 and yes all of us were early for school!(except for that leon, as usual, he's late.) And when the bell rang, we took our bags and walked all the way to the tennis courts for assembly while we embraced ourselves for the worst.(maybe not, maybe it was just me.) We walked through the gates of the tennis courts and decided to take root at class 5e1! And for the first time, 5e1's attendance was exploding, overpouring!(okay it wasn't funny) And then there was a announcement for the whole school to stand up for the national anthem and the pledge taking ceremony, all of us stood up with the class and we unanimously sang and recite both the pledge and the anthem! Okay, this isn't the main course, but the main highlight's that ever since we stepped into the tennis courts, the discipline master, melvin sim and the vice-principal, kathryn koh were staring at us throughout, even during devotion! But the strange thing was that teachers walked passed us but they didnt seem to chase us out or anything but instead just continue on walking to their classes! Well, the first thought that hit me was, 'oh no, i think we're going to get chased out', BUT NO! Hilariously, kathryn koh called up Mrs Aw and i guess, she asked about us and Mrs Aw jokingly said that we were going to get punished! We stayed back after everyone was dismissed and strolled over to where kathryn koh was and we started greeting and talking to her, and one look on her face, you could tell that she was happy and perhaps really surprised to see all of us!

After speaking to kathyrn koh and melvim sim, we went around the whole school to greet some teachers that we know! Man, i could just feel the nostalgia of acs school life, it was so tangible.

Next, after we had our breakfast in school, we headed off to SENTOSA! woo hoo! but not quite. I guess most of us intended to go over there for a sun-tanned. What sun? It was frigging raining throughout the whole day! We reached sentosa at about 11am? And the moment we decide to settle down the rain started pouring and then we had to look for shelter. Somehow i must say that almost the whole sentosa day was spend under shelter. But of course we played beach soccer and beach volleyball! This time we were more prepared for sentosa and i thank God for that or if you could imagine, it was raining and we had totally nothing to do but to stay under shelters? As quoted by the guys, "we paid money just to go to sentosa to sit down?"

Oh yes i have to applaude the guys who played beach soccer, we played beach soccer with this group of guys, i must say they bag along with them a group of three babes but they certainly weren't guys that looked as if these girls would like to hang out with and to say, they looked 'bengish' and they are. They certainly were really rough, i repeat they weren't aggressive but plain rough and in a sense we all felt that they were playing dirty. Still honour goes to us, we won them though by a close margin but still we won ! The final score was 5-4! So guys, you guys did a great job! All of us came out injured after the game, i have a really numb and sore right foot, i can hardly move my big toe up or down. (i have to go and put some medication) I wouldn't say all of them were playing dirty but some of them were, sometimes they didn't seem as if they were going for the ball but instead, for our legs and one even shown himself as trying to look for trouble. But no doubt, we won and i'm happy!

So at about four o'clock, we left the siloso beach and went to harbour front's hawker centre for dinner. After that i rushed down to orchard cineleisure to meet ian, we went to watch the premiere of STAR WARS 3! The show's not bad, at least it breaches the gaps of the trilogy and the first two episodes of Star Wars. The show's about 2 and a half hour long but i don't think that's an accurate time because somehow there was some techincal faults at the start so we re-watched the starting part again. I think all of you should go and watch it, unless you're not into Stars Wars, then...

Well that was my day! All compressed into one entry! Indeed, i am feel really really exhausted after such an 'adventurous' day out. Also, not forgetting that i've to wake up at about 730? Because i've to go to nanyang poly for freshmen orientation. Well i pray for the best tomorrow, hope it's good! So i'm going off now! Cheers!

almost here

Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i'd left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here