church camp

It's been 2 days since church camp has passed and I was just about to get into the momentum of it all, until the last day of camp came knocking at the door of my hotel, "boy, it's time to pack up now! Church camp's over!" Aww...Yes in short, i really missed camp!

Albeit this camp's the first camp i've ever been to in Wesley YM, but i can't deny that it has been one of the most memoriable and blessed church camp that i have ever been to! Two thumbs up!

Since I didnt actually have the opportunity to go up on stage to testify about how the camp have impact me, I would only think its fair that i should personally jot down my experiences and happenings during this camp. As for now, i'm so blessed that i cannot just keep mum about all that has happened!

I would say that through this camp, I've drawn much closer to God and as I've shared during small group time, I came to the camp not expecting much just to get whatever that i cant get. But i must say that i've actually got more than i asked for, other than growing closer to Him, I know that the passion and fire for God has been re-kindled in my life. And i'm happy about that!
Next, i would say that the people around me during the camp actually contributes to creating an impact and influence around me. I would say i've grown closer to my friends whom i already know and inevitably, i've made more friends in church!

As I stepped into the service hall today(although, i was late!), i could almost sense a different aura and ambience which was untangible yet comfortable. It just feels like home! Which is where i belong!

And did i mention this? 1 Peter 1:17! You're the best! Woo! Alright, this is a shoutout to all my group mate during my camp! I pray you continue to grow in the Lord and that we may never forget the bonding and fellowship we had during this camp, 06!

Next shoutout, is to all the bruddders and sisters in church! Thank you so much for being so welcoming and making it so happening and fun to be around with!

As you can tell by now, you surely know that I have thoroughly enjoyed myself and if you're asking me if i'd be attending next year's camp. It is almost not a doubt that i'd be there!(Unless shit happens = school exams/test)

I wish i could explain and describe to you my ecstatic joy and the happenings during camp, but I thought, this entry might never end! You just have to know that i'm happy and that's fulfilling enough.

Oh yes, latest news! I would like to congratulate my dearest and beloved aunt for winning the best supporting actress of 2006 during the star awards! I'm so proud of you! You totally deserve it!

The hectic weeks

While typing this entry out, i'm actually over at Nick's place and i'm hogging his computer! So, thanks mate!

In retrospect, my weeks do pass really quickly nowadays ever since school started. I wouldnt say it's a bad thing neither would it be a good thing, because sometimes the good times pass too quickly and yet you would like the times of tribulations to pass as quickly as possible. SO yes.

The timetable for school is as such; mondays i do not have school and then it's like a stampede for the next four days as the hordes of modules that i have are being cramped into four days. It's exhausting because i've finally realised that i'm not quite cut out to be a morning person, hence i'm always late for school(as usual, i know but....shh!).

You can't say that i didnt try with utmost effort to try to be punctual for school, but i just need lots of sleep. I'm a sucker for sleep! I need at least 9 hours of sleep.

Today's monday and not for long tuesday will come and hopefully, the week will pass even before i know it.

Inside out.

Indeed, better is one day in the house of the Lord than a thousand days in a world. My, it's been only a week that i haven't been to church and it already feels as if i haven't been there for a month! Not that there are much significant change, but surely i could feel a change that exudes jet-lag like symptoms. Such a wonder sometimes how spirituality could affect my life so much.

I enjoyed church today although somehow, church came to a close with some inexplicable abruptness, but i could be oblivious to it.

Oh yes, i have to wish my brother happy birthday, so my BLOODY BROTHER, HAPPY BIRTHDAY PUNKASS! Don't be a jackass anymore, you're not a 13 year old kid! MUAHAHAHA.

So i spend half the day celebrating his birthday and then, left for Muks' house. Thanks for the food! It's nice but i dont take very spicy food, sorry!

Anyway, it's getting late so im really feeling like a sleepy head now. So, i'm out. But I thank God for today...

This week

I feel a little guilty that I haven't gone for training(swimming) for the entire week, but i guess i do have more-than acceptable excuses to have skipped it. Trainings are on mondays and thursdays, 6 to 8 at night. So conicidentally, i had make-up classes on this particular monday from 6 to 8 and since studies are prior over cca, i've no choice but to miss it.
On thursday, training's the same time, same place. The story goes like this, my dad bought a pair of tickets to watch Yngwie Malmsteen's concert in Singapore, with initial intentions that i were to accompany him to catch to it, but due to some unforeseen circumstance, it is business trip superceding the concert, sadly he had to miss it. At the end i went with my brother. Coincidentally again the concert falls on this particular thursday night, hence it'd be foolish and wasteful if i didn't turn up for the concert as my dad has already paid 140 plus dollars just to get the pair of tickets to catch Yngwie(which would be almost a one-time opportunity) live in Singapore.

The concert was great and rocking! He's indeed the fastest guitarist! The way he immaculately manoeuvre his hands around and across the guitar with such ease and dexterity, is almost unattainably impressive! Such a prodigy. But by speculation, Darren feels that he sold his soul to the devil in exchange for the talent, which might be feasible. Who knows?

The concert was good but it was pretty deafening. My ears were so numb after the two and a half hours concert and the moment i stepped out of the concert, deafening rings seemlessly started to stream into my ear drums and until this morning, i could still hear it. But for now, i'm good!

To summarise what actually happened this entire week, other than school, i've been regularly meeting up with the brothers and not forgetting, I have to dedicate this portion of the entry to my brothers(though it might be already to late BUT, better than never!). A HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO WILSON, AARON and ARIEL! I hope you have a great and blessed birthday! Finally legal to do many things!

As you can see its getting real late, i have to turn in now, so i'm ending here. Nights!

The last entry of the month

I presumed that nobody actually visits my blog nowadays, but lately it is apparent that people actually do visit. (Check out the previous comments left on the tagboard before tab's tag, utterly stupid.) So perhaps with such affirmations, I should be obliged to hurry an entry, like now. Since it's the last day of October, i should just write an entry to wrap up the entire month(As the previous entry was coincidentally posted on the 3rd of October).

The happenings for the entire month - the standard living of life in Singapore. As nothing extravagant actually happened for the entire month, other than going through two dreadful weeks of school, attending church, meeting up with the brotherhood(which was the only consolation of the month) and also trying to get my butt down for training both in swimming and muay thai.

Lately, I just feel so unfit; it is as if my body has been detached from my mind for just too long and that it's too rusty to coordinate with each other. I have been playing soccer on mondays regularly and as I try to start chasing after the ball, it felt like 10kg of weights were wrapped around my legs, making it so difficult just to even lift my legs off the ground.

So, I really have to start my exercising and re-build my agility so that i can move around at ease on the field. It gets really frustrating when i just can't perform on the field, it's my favourite sport and i don't wish to feel incompetent in it.

What else? I haven't really thought much into writing this entry. I guess i have to blog a little more regularly so i could bring it to another level, rather than the usual vapid contents that similarly repeats itself, except in different words.

So let me think of what i could write about before i continue...

I need a haircut.

How time flies. Since the last entry that was posted on this stagnant blog, 4 weeks have gone and im left with the second last week of the entire holiday, how nice.(I'm not very keen on going back to school, that's why)

To actually give a summary of what happened for the past 4 weeks, I actually got a job for the first week and soon after seven days or so, i lost it. Not because i got sacked but it's a project-based assignment, so after it's done, i'm not needed anymore. Really sad. Then for the last 2 weeks i've been staying at home, bumming around with whatever money that i've earned for the last 2 weeks. I was pretty keen on looking for another job(It's not as if i didnt tried, i called up a couple of job agencies to get me a short-stint job though.), but given such little time left, who would hire someone who could only work for 2 more weeks? Certainly not. I guess i just have to really make use of whatever money that i have wisely.

To describe my life for the holidays would certainly be summed with one word - blurry. Just going through the entire routine of life..breathing, eating and sleeping. That's about it and time still passes by but nothing much has actually changed, or has it gotten worst? I got my results, they weren't up to expectations, i saw my timetable and i'm totally flabbergasted and furious. I strongly object having night classes on fridays. Seriously, this damned school has already robbed me away from much of my freedom. First you conveniently took away all that june holidays and december holidays, and now you want me to go back to school on friday night? I hate to say this, but F*** YOU times three!

Anyway, i'm just going to write another letter just to get me out of this hell hole. If the entire class doesnt want to be out of it, I will be most willing to be out of the damn class. Let's see what happens when i've finally draft my letter of bombardment and displeasure.

Actually, I feel a little guilty and disappointed with myself, because i haven't really hanged out with the brotherhood this holidays. I really hope i could catch up with them more often before the lovely holidays come to a close.

Job Hunting

Looking for a job is indeed difficult. Especially when the amount of time you have is relatively short and constrained. One week of holidays has passed since its started and learning from past experiences, it's better to start looking for a job as soon as possible, if not it makes the search even harder, as everyday counts.

Sometimes i love the holidays yet hate it. It's too long for me to slack around and waste my time away, yet it's too short a time for me to find a decent job. Seemingly, im growing pretty desperate as every day that passes!

So, this is an entry of help and plea. I need some help in looking for a job, any job recommendations, do leave a comment on my tagboard! Thanks!

Holidays! Welcome back!

Finally, the smell of freedom to do anything that i want is back! The exams are finally over! Although i pulled off an incredulous stunt on monday. You see i did study, i studied so hard but it's just that...i studied for the wrong paper for the wrong day! How cool is that!

Maybe i was too complacent and thought that i've studied for the correct paper and didnt bother checking my phone(Because i left the dates of the exams int it) more than twice. But just as i was on the train to school, which was about 5 minutes away from school and 30 minutes away from the paper, i was just simply..stunned. So in such a constraint and constricted situation, i just had to make do with and try my best to study as much as i could and absorb all of it.

Seriously, thank God i brought the materials along with me or else..i'm just so screwed. So i sat for the paper and i came out with half-grinned. The paper was easy, i could do most of it..but the paper was too easy that there'll surely be some down moderation..pfft..

You can laugh at me. Sometimes, i dont know what to do with myself! Ha!

life prerogatives

There are somethings in life you can acquire, and some you can't.

Some prerogatives that we get and some that we can never experience no matter how hard we try. Yet there are somethings in life we work so hard for it but we never get what we really wanted, then when we dont try to hard we get better than expected. Isn't it?

Sometimes, you wish you could leave yourself and be someone else. Don't you feel that way in anyway?

The luxuries of life, to me, is a chase that never ends...

O.. thou fragile life

Indeed, life is really very fragile. One moment you might be fine and the next moment you might be bed-ridden or at it's worst, "oh shit, i'm dead! Hello God!"

Knowing myself, ever since i was young, i was a kid who was pretty much injury proned because of the activities that i engage in. But i've never recalled once, getting myself into so many minor freak accidents as compared to this year.

To actually jote down all those 'memorable' freak accidents i've got myself in would actually date back to the time when i was thirteen, secondary one...

I was on my way home, i alighted from the bus just outside my house and then, i didnt know why i'd do it but, i've foolishly jaywalked in front of the bus and obviously forgetting about the on coming traffic on the next lane so...the next thing i knew was that i woke up underneath a tree and there were a couple of people surrounding me. Frantically, i looked around and cried, "i've got to go home!" But some stranger held me down and explained that they had called the ambulance. Yes, the ambulance came eventually after a couple of minutes and i was brought to the hospital. In the ambulance, thoughts just sped past my head and i was trying to recall what actually happened before i landed underneath the tree.

Thank God, i just suffered a few grazes and abrasions. But i have to admit i'm still at a lost about what actually happened.

Next foolish accident that i've got myself into was something similar to the one above, except that it occured while i'm conscious. This accident happened just outside Faith Assembly and i was going to jaywalk, AGAIN. This time, i was well too absorbed into trying to message and has slipped my mind that the road was two-way and hence, i didnt look out for the traffic that was coming towards me and a car just merely scraped past me. The first thing that came to my mind was, "Shit, what the hell just hit me?" It seemed as if 10 rugby players just came charging towards me. The casualties - a hair line crack on one of the toes on my left foot and an abrasion on my right elbow.

The last time i didnt experience the feeling of getting hit by a car, so this time i know how freaking awful it is to get hit by a car. P.S I'm still jaywalking.

Thirdly, this happened at the start of the year. Simply said, i drank myself silly and then i didnt know what was going on and the next thing i knew, i lost half of my 2 front teeth by the next morning.

Embarassing and stupid. So from then on, drinks, moderate please.

Fourthly, it just happened on saturday, after muay thai training. I thought of strengthening up my shins, so i went over to kick the bundled bamboo poles that was tied to a pillar. I kicked it thrice with my left leg and then it hurts, so i switched leg and started kicking it with my right. I kicked it thrice continuously and then the next moment i see a hole in my shin and bloody just started to spew out. First thoughts that came to my mind, "God, i'm bleeding...bleeding..BADLY"

So i got the little crater in my shin stitched, with four stitches (OUCH). And i have to just stay at home for about 2 weeks, isolating myself from any vigorous activites until its recovered.

You don't have to tell me, but i know how foolish i am at times. On the contrary, people make mistakes, people play with fire and get hurt. Most of the time we should learn from it. I have no idea what kind of freak or stupid accidents i'm going to get myself in, but surely i have to be more careful.

I pray that i wouldn't get myself into such accidents again.

God protect me in my every step. Amen.

New blog skin! How's it?

The past, my present and future feelings

I thought of a new start. I thought of a good start to a new chapter of life. I presumed that a new chapter of life, the negative things of the past will disintegrate. I thought i'd have a refreshed perspective of life. Isn't it so? Or is it a dream? Do i continue to dream?

It's been said umpteen times that we should always look ahead in life, leave the past as it is; behind. Is every second, the clock ticks away, the past of our life that we should just leave behind? I asked myself this question too many times, i doubt i can confidently churn out a definite answer.

Paradoxically, we live today that we might live for the future. Strange isn't it?

I've tried to bury the past and keep only the good memories alive, but how is it that the present is occasionally the reenactment of the past? Is it human to make the mistakes we knew we were making? If that's the case, do you call that sin? How is it that unwittingly, we plunge ourselves into this deluge of mistakes we try to avoid?

Am i appropriate in my reactions towards how i feel? Or am i just being over-sensitive, worst still, being self-delusional? Yet it isn't incriminating to feel this way, however, it's detrimental.

I don't want to be alone. I feel outcasted. But was it self-inflicted? Or is it situations and circumstances that sporadically compels me to mixed feelings?

If life is about living for today, in turn for the future, i pray that what i'm feeling is a symptom of stress and after the exams, life will re-organise.

Breaking the silence

Before anyone almost or, actually becomes well- accustomed to my irregularity(in fact, almost inactive) in blogging. Here's just another entry just to nullify the aura of stagnance and extinguish that thought in your mind!

Currently, i'm in school using the school's computer to entirely type this simple entry now. And so you might ask, why haven't i been bothered to do my usual updates? I'd simply sum it up into two factors; i'm lazy and school work's sapping the life force out of me.

I would say that both factors are interdependent. Lazy because i'm too pre-occupied by the amount of projects i've got to hand in, within such a small timeframe. It has been three weeks that i've been cracking my head, trying to just complete(not even to beautify) the various projects that i have. Yes, admittedly yet shamefully, ever since the semester started, i haven't been consistent in following up with school work and projects. Consequently, i'm left with only one route; rush it.

I would like to type abit more but unfortunately, lesson's over and so i've got to leave! Once again, Thank God It's Friday!

Laters.

Happy Birthday Fly Entertainment!

I must indelibly jote yesterday's happenings down on my blog.

On 07/07/06, Friday night, at zouk, i've experienced the most exciting and exuberant party of the year! And i could only be grateful and thankful to my aunt and uncle for bringing me along to this party! So thank you aunt and uncle, you're the best!

Now, let me explain what happened last night. Basically, the main event of this party's actually the seventh birthday or rather, the seventh anniversary of Fly Entertainment! So, my aunt and uncle, being a celebrity, was invited to this party and they were so nice that they even invited to go along with them!

So we got there in a car and when we reached the entrance of zouk, as usual they are the 'limelight' and i'd feel peculiarly displaced, simply because there is an incontrovertible line between celebrities and non-celebrities. Then again, when you are with the 'limelight' you will feel like them, and of course, absorbing the cheap thrills of being glamorous yet uncomfortable. Then at the door, we were warmly and well-received by the various ushers and for the first time, i neednt have to present an id to the bouncer! That was sweet!

As Fly Entertainment is a media company, the event was accompanied by staged performances and also the exhibition of the various artistes who has been with them for about 7 years (I'm pretty unsure about this)? And at that point of time, i was still busy trying to orientate myself, calibrating my position in the club so that i wouldnt feel so awkward.

Now, the good fun begin after the event ended. We were invited to the vip section and that was where all the havoc started. I can confidently admit that i've never enjoyed myself in a club this much as before. The way celebrities club, i would say in my opinion, revolutionary! I've never seen so many drinks being ordered at once and i've never taken so many photos in a club before!

I have to really thank yuan qi, for all that picture taking! Thank You! He's a really good photographer!

I would say through this party, apart from all that fun that i get, i think i've got to know a number of people whom are certainly 'healthy' towards my social network. Really appreciative about it and once again Thank You aunt and uncle! This entry's for you! Cheers!

p.s. If i can get some more pictures, i promise the next entry will be 'the gallery' of pictures. I'll be sure to post them up as soon as possible!








Velvet Underground Group Photo!















If you ever see her, tell her she's a goddess












The guy on the right's so hilarious!












My uncle and i!

Late Reflections

So yes, i've almost totally forgotten that i actually have a blog to update. So let me review what i've done for the past 2 to 3 weeks as i try to type out this entry. I think...I think..I think...there wasn't anything very significant except that last week was the first time i went to MOS and Zouk? Other than that, i've got an exam waiting for me this friday and i'm not well-revised at this point of time(by the way, today's tuesday). I can't say i'm screwed but definitely within this couple of short days, i'm sure i can "unscrew" myself and study what i've got to study for the test.

Pertaining to school, i haven't exactly done well, in my expectations that is, for all the test that i've taken. And you can say that i'm pretty worried that i'm unable to maintain my gpa, speculating on my current performance.

I've got to, the very least do well enough for this paper and then i can let my hair down.

acs idol.

Three words to sum up the entire event, it-was-good! So anyway, i really had fun, met quite a number of old friends that are in acjc. Really good to see you guys again, it's my pleasure! And also not forgetting cheryl and friends, for being such a great company! See you on Sunday!

However, i still miss ac...

Struggle.

Before i could take the next step and decide to pull up my socks and start studying proper, it's the seventh week into school and the common tests are already lurking around the corner. If you share the same sentiments as me, yes i empathise with you. Damn, that's fast.

For the past eight weeks, i can't confidently say that i've got a clear grasp about everything that has been preached to me; I would say i'm struggling and it certainly isn't a bed of roses proceeding on from year one to year two. More subjects to tackle with in fact, the most subjects i've taken for my entire poly life; nine subjects! It sucks.

With more modules, meaning more time spent in school and that's not a good sign either.
Why? It's because the timetable i currently have is imbalanced and negatively skewed. We have night classes on monday and then a free day the next day but so what? The next few days are tedious, tiring, long, boring and whatever that's negative you could think of. Besides why would i even need a break on Tuesdays? It's the second day of the week and it's nowhere near the end of it.

On Wednesday, I've got to get up before 8, Thursdays, before 9 and Fridays before 10. So you might think what's the big deal, you'll end early i presume? Not at all. Actually i wouldn't mind having school til 6pm on thursday or wednesday, but not on Fridays! It viciously devoid me from enjoying Fridays, which happens to be the last weekday of the week. I bet this didn't occur to those who created such a screwed-up timetable.

To metaphorically describe the life that i lead in school is like a cup made of glass. Firstly, ice water is poured into the cup and following, boiling water is added into the same glass of water and eventually, it cracks and breaks.

Initially, when i thought that the revamping of modules would be a good idea, a blessing in disguise but instead, it's more like an ill omen in disguise now.

To intensify the situation, there must be some idiot who has to be uniquely eccentric in class to compell the class to boycott him. How shameful is he that step on my toes and incur the wrath within, i say you ought to feel honoured, but i'm sorry bad move. Where art thou shame?

As you might perceived, school hasn't really seem all that enjoyable but it definitely seems more 'exciting'. I had a bad start for one the class test, didn't do well enough to even scrape near my expectations.

So now, i've got to end here and start studying! God please help me...

Laters.

sleepy

darn...i need to sleep. I AM SO SLEEPY. Because i'm in class right now, again...blah. -faints and goes right to sleep-

boring.

Gosh, school doesn't get any exciting, does it? Sigh, it's so boring and it's friggin' cold down here. -shivers- -_-

Happy Mother's Day.

To commemorate happy Mother's day, here's wishing all the moms in the world, a very blessed and Happy Mother's Day! =)

The ruling party of two.

I've found the root reason why i do not want to stay at home when the folks are at home. One phrase, a ruler with an iron fist. Home's becoming like a country's that ruled by two unreasonable rulers, whom just have the authority and thinks they are all so mighty.

I think i was taught how to honour my parents. Think again, sometimes they are a real pain in the ass, who thinks that their word is immaculate and final. Think again, you're wrong. We're just giving you face. Giving you that face that makes you have that impression that you're still having control over us. With such unreasonable and unsatisfactory ruling over the household, I'd say i'm pretty fired up for a revolt now.

Sometimes, i really hate adults? Because they tend to thinkg they are god? But look, you are still human. YOU ARE NOT GOD AND YOU GOT TO KNOW THAT SOMETIMES YOU'RE SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS. Come on, be realistic, be human even if you don't want to be like parents and rather, a dictator.

One more thing, we are living in the modern world, you and your passe traditional attitude should have been scraped a million years ago. I know...I know in the 90s it was a one way thing and "my word is final" but i'm sorry in the new millenia, it's two way and "your word is final" is just the beginning of a "heated argument".

You know, it's not that we want to treat you like "ATM Machine" which you always try to refer it to yourself to credit some "self-sympathy" Perhaps you could look at your demeanour towards us that unwittingly surfaces such "ATM-ONLY-NOT-SOMEONE-TO-GIVE-TWO-HOOTS-ABOUT" qualities. Don't blame us for treating you more than just that, because that's what you've always effortlessly conveyed to us.

And for the last, i'm going to let everybody know about this. Oh you don't know how bitter i feel, but my birthday just passed and what was that one thing that you gave me? NOTHING. Oh wait one more, you gave me this reluctant and perculiarly black and long face on the day of my party held by your OWN family. What kind of shit is that?!

Sometimes, you must try to review about your own actions and not constantly trying to tell us what you've constantly beeen struggling with. You know something? In retrospect, with such parental attitudes and values that you've always inflicted upon us, i'm sincerely apprehensive about picking them after you dictators.

As you've perceived and deduced, i'm pretty annoyed with them. I think i should just get out of here and be home when all that dictators are asleep.

It is not happening!

It's been two weeks since school started and this week's the second week. In a nutshell, school hasn't been altogether fun; revamped and tougher modules were thrown to us. I'd be ashame to say this but up to now, i can't exactly figure out what are the objectives at the end of learning some of the modules.

Nothing in school changed, except the entrance of new poly students which are not too impressive. What else? Some year ones turned year two became OGLs tried to segregate and set themselves apart from the civilians, gloating about their experiences and the OGs that they have guided.

As harsh as it may sound, but that's the fact. I'm not wrong. You guys know it.

This time round, there's only one word to describe the new timetable, SUCKS! I've got night classes on monday hence, there isn't any school on the following day. But it's an awful waste, the free day's on a tuesday, it's in the middle of nowhere during the week and the next day you've got to wake up at 7 for the 8 o'clock class. pfft. Thursday's and Friday's a pain in the ass, I end school at 6! Okay, Thursday isn't too bad as i could immediately head for swimming training, but Friday!? It's totally burned!

Shit, sounds like i'm complaining. Then again, this is the review of the past two weeks of life in school. Enjoy.

Celebrate!

I just want to thank you all for coming tonight for a simple dinner with me! No doubt it might seem so short, but it definitely smells sweeter. Thank you for your time, company and the presents that you've given, I really appreciate them. For the presents, you read my mind! And for the dinner, it was surely fun-filled with crazy laughter and euphoria! All these couldn't happen without you guys around!

To end this entry of gratitude, i could confidently say that this 'celebration' was better than the previous year's by tenfold, despite the informality! And you guys were a great bunch of company! So i hope all that of you had shared the same sentiments of fun and enjoyment!

Take care and see you guys around the corner soon! =) Thanks!

hell commencement.

Sigh, school starts all over again. =( And i'm in school right now...

in her eyes.

I sat there.
All i ever see was her greyish-blue eyes
that spelled nothing except emotions.

Changes...

I got really bored and started to do some casual browsing through friendster and realised that, i'm really getting older. (Please, it's not some dumb blonde lame joke, pardon me) And every year that passes by each time, many things change; in fact, major changes occurs .

Not much of a surprise that things will change over time, but i wouldn't expect such drastic changes can happen in people's life. Especially in those that you've already lost touch with and when you chanced upon a glimpse of their present state in life, you see the tables turn and wow, certainly this person has grown and matured, different!

"People change", this phrase hasn't been so literal to me, not until now.

Nonetheless, it's all part of the growing up process? I guess no one really knows what the future(physcial) really holds?

Judgement day

As much fun as it seems and, that i'm enjoying the holidays, judgement day's tomorrow. It might be my dead line or it could be my life line. In short, that means the semestral results will be released tomorrow at 6 am! (And then my heart sinks and i scream from the inside, "Nooooooooo!")

Although i'd know i've already done my best and all that's within my ability, you know, you just feel so insecure, so doubtful about how you're going to fare for the exams? Because it will be such a pain in the ass, if i'd flung any modules. Basically, my life will be screwed from then on. Self-scheduled timetables, dropping of a couple of subjects in sacrifice for the failed modules and the ultimatum, LONGER DAYS IN SCHOOL. That will certainly suck.

In the end, i guess i have no one to lean on except the one above, and hopefully, he'd grant me the desired outcome.

Pretty fickle right now. But a part of me dearly wants to know how'd i fare and there's another part of me which, just...don't want to know, shun and be completely ignorant about it.

Albeit, tomorrow's the day to see if i reap what i sow.

post exams!

Finally, the gruelling and tormenting exams are over! AND, the holidays are here! I've been waiting for this moment for a month and i'm happily relishing in it!

Today's the second day of the holiday. By the looks of it, it seem pretty smooth-going. Got to catch final destination 3 yesterday, well..it's the same plot, the main character has the premonition of what will happen and then she save those people from that crash but, they all have to die at the end of the day. So the story goes on and on until the last one standing which is the main character, and there she goes, goodbye!

Tonight i got to catch underworld evolution, i thought it was pretty nice and guess what it's free! Thanks Bryan, do call me more often if you have more free tickets for other shows!

If you've watched the first show, i guess you'll more or less appreciate underworld evolution. I shan't write about the story, just in case nobody has caught the show and i'd really be spoiling the fun. So, go find out what happens!

Next happy occasion would be this, i've found a job! I know that the holiday barely even started but what the heck, somehow i just got lucky and my friend found me a job as an admin staff! The juicy part about the job, is that it's only thrice a week and my workplace would be located at orchard. Very convenient, if i want to hang out with my friends after work!

Thank you kenny for getting me this job! Really grateful!

Ultimately, i have to give this all back to The One who has given and plan all these for me. So thank you GOD! All these wouldnt have happen if it werent for you!

I pray that my holiday this time would be a smooth and enjoyable one. So let's see what are the good happenings will come by next, im sure there's more...

fun o rama!

fun o rama's fun! love ac.

I cant play the songs..

Looking at your picture lying on my bed
Wishing I was pulling close the real you instead
I dont know what I said or did
But girl Im missing you
And I like to hear my music
But theres nothing I can listen to

Cos I cant play the songs I used to play because of you
The lonesome feeling start before the intro's halfway thru
Everyone reminds me of the things we used to do together
And I cant go to places that I used to take you to
Cos everywhere the faces there they all look just like you
Until your heart comes back where it belongs
I cant play the songs

Everywhere Im driving, I go a different way
I cant turn on my radio, afraid what they might play
My friends all drive me crazy cause youre all they ask about
And why I live in silence but they just dont understand

Without you, I cant play the songs I used to play because of you
The lonesome feeling start before the intro's halfway thru
No one can replace you cause once I tried
And even when I try to go with someone new
You are so deep in my head
I looked into her eyes but then I say your name instead
Until your heart comes back where it belongs
I cant play the songs

Theres nothing left that I can do cause I'm so lost in love with you
No where to turn, no place to run
You know you are my only one

I cant play the songs you used to sing along with me
Cos everyone is always bringing back the memory
Until your heart is back where it belongs
I cant play the songs (wont you please come back to me)

happy chinese new year!

Happy chinese new year everyone! WO JAI ZHE XING NIAN ZHU NI MEN SHEN TI JIAN KANG! XING XIANG SHI CHEN! BU BU GAO SHEN! SHUE YUE JING PU! NIAN NIAN YOU YU! =)

first wasted..now a wasted day...

Today's supposed agenda was to get my shades re-adjusted and get myself a jacket and then meet a "friend", later in the day.

So the day actually kicked off with a pretty good start.

Left the house with my dad at about 12 o'clock to the optician first. When we reached there, to our surprise, our optician's close for the day. Damn, but never mind, i'll just come back another day to get the shades fixed. So we had lunch and then headed down to town to buy a jacket.

Started off from topshop at wisma atria and then headed down to zara at taka. Somehow my dad always seems to be in a hurry. We were breeze shopping; scary.

Anyway, we couldn't find anything that we really wanted, so we headed down to the other zara, next to wheelock place, thinking that we might get a lucrative selection over there as the men's department was bigger compared to the one over at wisma. Yes and no, we found jackets with the my-dad-would-think-it's-worth-buying-for-me price! Not only did we find jackets, i found the silver surfer shirt which i've been eyeing on for ages! The best part was that it only cost 17 dollars! I thought it was perfect! BUT, unfortunately no SIZE!

I tried the shirt, it was too tied, almost bursting on me already. Felt as if it was some clean wrap pressed all over me. And the jacket was then too big. Pfft. Although this sounds stupid, but i do ponder sometimes why do we have sizes! If we live in a world without sizes then everything will be one size fit all! Isn't that good?

So the trip to zara was unfruitful, then we left for far east and by the time i reached far east, i felt a little tired and almost lost track of my objective. Thank God, i saw domanchi! So after much troubling the salesgirl about the colour and the size of the jacket, finally we bought one of them; By the way salesgirl, thanks for all that trouble, it's your job and you know it! hehehehe.

To cut the long story short, after buying, my dad got his belt altered at the nearest altering shop and then we head down to ikea to buy more stuff!

So the to-do list went down by two and i'm left with one.

After ikea, i told my dad that i needed to return to town to meet my friend. But that wasn't the friend i was suppose to meet.

That supposed friend i was going to meet really spoiled my entire night. We were suppose to meet at 8 plus latest 9 but to no avail, he bloody didnt even turn up. Shit, i got bastard by him. This time i'm really very peeved. I called him several times, he didn't reply. I left him with a couple of messages, he didnt reply. It was just a few days ago that we actually planned to meet up today and he told me that we could meet at 9. It was only a few days and it was during this week that we planned everything.

The factor that really got my blood boiling was that this wasn't the first time, neither was it the second time, nor was it even the third time. IT'S THE BLOODY FOURTH TIME! And to spice everything up, CONSECUTIVELY. One after another! And to further add more oil to the fire, he could leave me with a message saying that he's unable to make it today. BUT NO, no not at all.

Don't you think it's damn bastard? COMPLETELY no sense decency, responsibility and conscience! Gosh, what is the world going into man. I cannot believe how some people can just make people wait for nothing and then don't feel a shit. Actually, to look at this scenario all over again, it's scary such people don't even apologise. Is it because they've completely forgotten? Or are they just plain ignorant?

I just hope one day, some sharp conscience will hit you right smack in your face.

...

I should have just listened.

It's so true, the devil lures you into alcohol and then you drink and you drink and you drink... after that, what does he do? Drink, drank, drunk, and then he leaves you to die in your own folly.

STUPID!

Jesus forgive me.. ='(

You and Me.

I've see you, i've known you and i want you. I want you, want you as a friend, a friend that's closer than special. I want us to be more than friends.

When you thought it wouldn't be that soon.

I thought i'd blog later, but i can't help it but to blog about this particular issue that's somewhat, disturbing, worrying and shocking. Presently, i'm pretty much confidant to say that the end is drawing nearer and we're indeed living in the last days of earth. What i just saw on television was beyond belief but it is true and it's coming to past.

It was on the news and it reported that some american guy just created some microchip that could be imbued into your hand so that you could literally access the computer and information through your fingertips.

If you're a christian, i'm sure you've probably read the bible in various books such as Matthew, about some signs of the last days. There are many signs but certainly, the bible predicted this sign that in the last days, people would start to have chips inserted into their bodies and this is it. I just saw it on television, the prophecy is true.

I'm sure during the days of the bible, people couldn't be so advanced and high tech that would know how to churn out such an accurate conviction.

No seriously and sensibly, i don't think they were able to predict about the future, 2000 years ago.

I've to say that i'm very convicted after what i've just saw on television, that end is soon to come. It's just a matter of time.

Happy New Year!

I know this is abit late but still, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Since it's a new year, which means a new start, so i guess it's time that i'd find a new blog again! Will update everyone once i've found the time to change my blog, but for now, i'll stick to this one. =)

Enjoy yourself people, hope everyone has a blessed year ahead of them!

Laters!