Lackadaisical me.

yawns...man i'm so tired.. i've been busy working for the past few hours and only now then could i get a little bit of rest from everything. Lunch hour for me is pretty near but somehow i don't feel like eating and yet i'm hungry. Ever experience such moments before? I guess, if i'd were to go and look for food now, i'll be more than happy to eat.

I just gave the longest and widest yawn of the century.. i'm really tired. I dont think having more than 10 hours of sleep will make me anyhow awake. I've been so tired recently and yet i try to sleep as early as 1030, but at times, the computer games are just too much alluring that you just compromise. Before you know it, oh man it's already 11 plus! Then i've got to race quickly to bed (although the beds just four steps away from the computer) and quickly bring myself into sleep.

Unfortunately, i havent master the skill of getting into sleep within 5 minutes.. But i know my brother can! He could amazingly lie down on his bed, close his eyes and after about 5 minutes, he has already left for dreamland. Brilliant!

Okay, i feel kind of hungry right now, but i haven't really decide on what i should eat yet. Anyway, i'm ending this entry here.

(Anybody going out later? Hey it's a friday! Call me! -hint- )

If you were mine..

If you were mine,

I'd be your everything and you'd be the only thing that I would ever need.

If you were mine,

I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

Ohhh Yeaaa

Everything I dreamed about

Everything that I talked about

One thing I can't live without

I wanna get closer to you

Can't stand being far away

Knowing that you don't feel the same way

Questioning bring tears to your eyes

If you were mine,
I'd be your everything and you'd be the only thing that I would ever need.
If you were mine,
I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

Ohhh Yeaaa

All words I sing about

All that is that I write about

Only thing I wanna hear about

So that I can get closer to you

I know that there is someone else, but he's only thinking of himself

Doesn't make any sense for you to be lonely

If you were mine,

I'd be your everything and you'd be the only thing that I would ever need.

If you were mine,

I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

Ohhh Yeaaa

Let me be the one to share your hopes and dreams with

You'll never be alone again, cuz' I will hold you endlessly

Please don't be afraid to let your brokenheart guide you

Into these open arms that long to surround you, baby!!

If you were mine,
I'd be your everything and you'd be the only thing that I would ever need.
If you were mine,
I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

words in red are the words i am trying to expressed but unable to do it..anymore..i meant it, every word..

When the days are gloom...

I wish i could blog about the distressing situation that's occuring in my home now. But i guess it's not so glam to talk about it anyway. So better not.

Tears were shed, insults and curses have been thrown at each other. I pray for a better day tomorrow and that everything in my family will resume to it's original positive state as soon as possible.

Anyway, today's a thursday and in a couple of hours time, friday's going to come. And that means that it's nearing the weekends, but i guess it wouldn't be too much of a happy weekend. Family internal problems, and a foreseen unproductive friday after work.

Why such a despondant statement? Well...it's simple, after work i've got nobody that i could call out. Everybody's either having the big O's soon and they need to study, or it's just plainly..i just can't call you out...pfft..

So if any of my good friends, if you're looking reading this particular entry, do open the doors of your heart and call me out. Leading a pretty sad, monotonous life for now..i hope.

Working day.

i failed to ignore the voice behind my head. It compelled me into writing this entry, when the computer screen is tempting and starring blankly at me, telling me to quickly fill something in my blog. I can't help it so here it is...

Now, i'm at work. Decided to take a little breather for awhile from all that working. Work's been pretty fine for the day except that there is this bloody irritating colleague of mine that is really driving me up the wall. He keeps 'commanding' me to do things and i'm sorry i don't really take it very positively, when someone tries to portray me as if i'm not doing my work. I really hate it and it's getting up my nerves. Ergh!

I might be soooo much younger than you but i am sensible enough to complete my job.

Anyway, it's about an hour plus left until i get off from work. Today's my dad's birthday! So HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! -a can of beer to you, Cheers!- I'm elated, because there will surely be good dinner when i get home tonight!

Oh yes, i definitely have to honour my God here. Well, i thank him for giving me preferably good results! And because of my preferably good results, i'll be getting an ipod video! Sweet! So thanks God first and then Dad!

I can't bear to leave this entry now, but i've got to. Just in case some bugger comes up to me and says, "w-w-w-w-what's this? Is that your work? Have you found the casenotes that i need? Go and do your work first, don't keep doing other things.", "Have you gotten the casenotes? You better quickly go, if not the dental clinic closes." (Basket, I just got onto my email you slut. And i was doing my work, bitch, you surely got a problem with waiting. SHUT UP.)

Laters.

new ipod or ipod nano?

i can't decide which one i should get, ipod nano or the new ipod? any comments anyone? convince me!

Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry)

For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so
cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long
(i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games
(silly games)
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state
(inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

Beau.

i have never thought that this would actually happen to me. I always knew you'd be there for me. But i've never thought that you would actually mean so much to me. Realisation has brought upon me the revelation that i can no longer take you for granted and, that you have always been standing there but i could not see.

Now i've seen it, if you could only see how much you mean to me. Now I think of you everyday, every minute i'm missing you. For that i'm more than certain about my feelings.

But i guess it's fine, you would soon realise it and you will know what i mean. It's not too long before you'd discover.

As for me, i have to prepare myself for the good or for the bad? Of course it would be for the worst because the best has been prepared. Even if things do not turn out the way i'd like it to go, i'll be happy for you and hopefully we'll still be close friends.

If i cant have you, let me still cling on to the friendship that we have moulded and nurtured through the years.

Even if you feel lousy or unpretty, allow me to tell you that you're still beautiful. Still beautiful to me in every way.

And last but not least, the bottom line of this whole idiosyncrasy is, I love you.

This entry goes out to you, my beau...

Where are you????

"(I know you are out there baby...somewhere)
There is someone out there for me (I know there is somebody out there)
I know she is waiting so patiently (yeah) can you tell me her name? (Somebody tell me her name)
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane
How does she laugh? How does she cry? What's the color of her eyes?
Does she even realize I'm here?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?
dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)

There is someone out there for me (there is someone out there for me)
I know she is waiting so patiently (so patient)
Can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane (that's right)

Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?"

i want to know...

Relaxed.

Currently in the office right now. Nothing much to do right now, actually just waiting for a colleague to complete some documents before i could prepare to send them over to the various clinical departments.

Before i continue, did i write about the current job that i am being employed? I don't recall but anyway, i didn't really know what i was up for until the very day when i actually reported to work. When i first walked into the human resource departments, i presumed that i would be working down there. I was elated, "great, reasonable pay and a nice working environment, this must be a blessing". Well, i was wrong. Wrong in the portion where i'd be working in that office. I was sent to another department, MRO the acronym for (Medical Record Office).

I must say that the type of job that i'd expected wasnt compromised drastically, just a little. In fact, it's pretty good. I've got a desk to myself, and i'm still working in an office. (That's why i can write an entry now, in the office.) Cool.

About my job, i'm a clerk, basically i just have to do some tracking of medical records for the various staff personnels who requires them. When i've found the files needed, i just have to check it in, out or transfer them. Yes, you could say it's more or less being like a librarian.

Hmm...interestingly, today's my "slackiest" day. I don't really have much files to track for or to complete any other paperwork. I even had time to sleep! That's what you call making money, without even putting in alot of effort you get cash for sleeping! Sweet.

Alright i shan't boast or gush about my job now.

Today's friday! Great! The weekend's near and so it's time to party! (I cant wait for Saturday actually.)

Signing off now!

Laters.

Chelsea sucks!

The name of this football team, "C.H.E.L.S.E.A F.C" never fails to piss me off because Chelsea equals to red. SO i see red. It's such a pain in the ass and a sore to the ears. They think they are damn good but i believe they will fall one day. They are being over ambitious, i wish they would knock their heads and get screwed in the ass when they dont get to win ALL the trophies(which i certainly doubt), as they have openly and shamelessly declare to the world.

Jose Mourinho. Okay now this name. I'm sure you all know who's this. Its the manager of that disgusting football club. I just cannot believe that he actually trademark his sickening name and he's going to get 1 million pounds because of that. SICK.

Ah, it's disgusting. I shan't continue or i'll really have to puke whatever that i'd previously ate.

I dont like Chelsea. They are bullshit.

Working.

Day three. The third day since i've started working. Work's been pretty okay. reasonable and manageable. In fact i thought it was pretty much relax compared to jobs in F&B industries.

I just reached the office actually.

Wish i could blog more but i've got to start working. I'm just afraid might just catch me in the act and deem me as slacking.

Laters!

Mission Accomplished.

I knew my God would help me get a job! YES! I got a job! I'm going to be working at Alexandra Hospital with effect from this coming Monday but until when, i'm not very sure and will be confirmed again. The pay's not bad, 6 dollars an hour and if you work for more than 42 hours a week, you'd get one and half times the pay for the subsequent overtime hours. And the more lucrative part of it all, is that when you work on a weekend, the pay's double!

I look forward to Monday and hopefully i'd be able to acquire some new and interesting experiences through this job!

Thanks mum and God! I owe you.

Man, when i get my first pay, i'll have to tithe 10 percent of it to God first and then treat my parents and grandmama to some lunch or dinner. (Don't worry! Mich i'll get you a waterfall or a flaming lambho!)

Hmm i just got home from supper with parents. I ate quite a lot. Had a bowl of wanton noodles and another delicious bowl of prawn noodles and i just ate these irresistable, aroma mouth-watering chicken wings. Nice! -belches-

It's really late, time for bed. Laters then.

I know everything in this world was rented to me, even the air that i breathe. God, you gave a me job, wouldnt you give me an angel too?