Finally, i've got sometime for myself to at least update my all-so-stagnant-blog. As you've reckoned, i've been busy with the school work. Projects, deadlines, assignments and exams to study for, etc.
Anyway, i'm left with my digital media project for now, should be able to complete it in a couple of days. I just can't wait to complete it so i could peacefully do my other revisions. School's been hectic for the past two weeks. There was endless loads of work, every night i complete some work, the next day i'll get more.
So this is poly life. B-U-S-Y
But i know i've got to perservere for just a couple of more weeks, because the reward of about 2 months of holidays will be coming up pretty soon. So that's a good motivation, yet a consolation prize.
As you all know, tomorrow or the day after is teacher's day. So Happy Teacher's Day to the teachers around the world! Cheers. So, a group of seven of us went back to barker today. Some wore the uniform, some didn't. Oh but i did. Anyway, we visited our newly crowned vice-principal, who was our former english teacher, the principal himself, our form teacher, lit teachers and i think that's about it. I DO MISS BARKER. I miss those days that i was in barker road, having all the fun that i can never receive from poly. Secondary school days are just simply fun, you make friends that would stand by you and friends that you could keep for all the years of your life. As i was on the journey to barker, my school's moto came into my mind, "Grow Old Along With Me, The Best Is Yet To Be".
Indeed it's so true, i've made friends with students and teachers that i could grow old along with. Really appreciate everything that has been passed down to me in barker road, the culture, the unique style.
Okay, i've got to end here. Got to get back to reality and start working on the project.
Later.
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Saturday, August 13, 2005
A simple saturday.
Went to cut my hair yesterday and i'm pretty contented with it. Though it was a hairstyle that does not follow my initial plans. As i was browsing through the book, i stumbled upon this particular hairstyle which is pretty nice although it is really short and it'll will take me some time to grow back alot of hair.
I think the hairstylist at ST salon is good. She can cut nice hair.
Since i havent have much to update about anything, so i'd just give a short account of what i'll be doing today.
Well, i'll be heading down to church at about 2 for music practice. I'll be drumming for the cantonese service tomorrow. Today's my first day, so wish me that it'll go through smoothly! (Hopefully, my left leg wouldnt stop me froming playing.)
So after music practice, i've got church service to attend then after that i think i'd be meeting sharon, if not then i'll just go out with my church peeps.
Yes! That's about it for the day.
Later.
I think the hairstylist at ST salon is good. She can cut nice hair.
Since i havent have much to update about anything, so i'd just give a short account of what i'll be doing today.
Well, i'll be heading down to church at about 2 for music practice. I'll be drumming for the cantonese service tomorrow. Today's my first day, so wish me that it'll go through smoothly! (Hopefully, my left leg wouldnt stop me froming playing.)
So after music practice, i've got church service to attend then after that i think i'd be meeting sharon, if not then i'll just go out with my church peeps.
Yes! That's about it for the day.
Later.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
Explosive air.
I'm not quite sure what's wrong with today. There seems to be some explosive air in Singapore today. Everyone around me seems to crackle with anger, not with delight. There must be something wrong today. In line with the stupid 7th month shit that the chinese believe in, i really hate it. I dread this month. First i got hit by some shit ass car and now my whole family seems as if the world have just stepped on their bloody toes.
My dad seems easily agitated, my mum is as usual, easily angered but today the rate of change seems a little unusual. Both my parents are mood swinging like a see-saw. My brother's a blood fag, who can't seem to converse properly with others. That bugger really needs to learn some good and polite conversational skills.
I'm not afraid of him looking at this entry. Because i really think you need to reply people politely, just as others do to you. Just a word of advice, you better watch your language that you chose to use, dont use it blindly without any proper understanding of the words. Trust me, if you continue your shit ways, you'll get whacked up by people and i say you deserve it because you dont know when to shut up. GROW UP.
I'm pretty peeved because of their unprecedented behaviour for the day. I really feel like going out of this house for the day and come home at night. Never knew that staying at home could be like a house turned hell hole instead. Literally.
In the afternoon, i was screamed at by my dad, well maybe i deserved it but I was confused and bewildered by the family's overall mood ever since the day started. I dont understand my dad sometimes, he can talk to anybody in the world politely, but he can never talk to my mum nicely and then that's where the world will start to crumble and a fight is triggered.
Maybe my mum's really sarcastic most of the time when she opens up her mouth, but i believe that my dad should just talk to her nicely when she isnt sarcastic and all. The ironic thing about all these, is that they are often in the opposite of moods when they are conversing.
My mum just screamed at my maid and i really dont understand why the hell does she always like to associate words or connotations of death into her sentences. I feel at times, she contradicts what she tells my maid to do, for example, when my mum tells my maid to ask her anything if she doesnt know. But when my maid ask her, she gives her a responce that to her, seems all too rhetorical, "what do you think?". Tell me, is that menopause or pms? I dont know.
Enough! I need some peace people. I really dont feel good enough being anchored down to home because of my darn injury. I'm frustrated with it and all. Can't i just have my peace?
At this present moment, even when my brother and dad are out, the bloody tense atmosphere seems to lurk and linger around the house and i hate the feeling of it all. God i cry and plead, take away this tension, right now. Please!
I really pray for a better day tomorrow, because it's affecting me too much, i'm becoming angry and frustrated myself. Completely befuddled by everything that has happened today. Indeed, people's moods could be metaphorically compared to a wave or a tide, you dont know when it's coming up or going down unless you keep close observation. But, as for me i dont care, i have better things to bother about than this.
If i'm sick of all this shit, i'm sure it's about time that they should observe what is happening and feel my sentiments.
It's national day today, i want to wish the nation a very happy birthday! Happy Birthday Singapore!
I had enough ranting already, thanks. Good Bye.
My dad seems easily agitated, my mum is as usual, easily angered but today the rate of change seems a little unusual. Both my parents are mood swinging like a see-saw. My brother's a blood fag, who can't seem to converse properly with others. That bugger really needs to learn some good and polite conversational skills.
I'm not afraid of him looking at this entry. Because i really think you need to reply people politely, just as others do to you. Just a word of advice, you better watch your language that you chose to use, dont use it blindly without any proper understanding of the words. Trust me, if you continue your shit ways, you'll get whacked up by people and i say you deserve it because you dont know when to shut up. GROW UP.
I'm pretty peeved because of their unprecedented behaviour for the day. I really feel like going out of this house for the day and come home at night. Never knew that staying at home could be like a house turned hell hole instead. Literally.
In the afternoon, i was screamed at by my dad, well maybe i deserved it but I was confused and bewildered by the family's overall mood ever since the day started. I dont understand my dad sometimes, he can talk to anybody in the world politely, but he can never talk to my mum nicely and then that's where the world will start to crumble and a fight is triggered.
Maybe my mum's really sarcastic most of the time when she opens up her mouth, but i believe that my dad should just talk to her nicely when she isnt sarcastic and all. The ironic thing about all these, is that they are often in the opposite of moods when they are conversing.
My mum just screamed at my maid and i really dont understand why the hell does she always like to associate words or connotations of death into her sentences. I feel at times, she contradicts what she tells my maid to do, for example, when my mum tells my maid to ask her anything if she doesnt know. But when my maid ask her, she gives her a responce that to her, seems all too rhetorical, "what do you think?". Tell me, is that menopause or pms? I dont know.
Enough! I need some peace people. I really dont feel good enough being anchored down to home because of my darn injury. I'm frustrated with it and all. Can't i just have my peace?
At this present moment, even when my brother and dad are out, the bloody tense atmosphere seems to lurk and linger around the house and i hate the feeling of it all. God i cry and plead, take away this tension, right now. Please!
I really pray for a better day tomorrow, because it's affecting me too much, i'm becoming angry and frustrated myself. Completely befuddled by everything that has happened today. Indeed, people's moods could be metaphorically compared to a wave or a tide, you dont know when it's coming up or going down unless you keep close observation. But, as for me i dont care, i have better things to bother about than this.
If i'm sick of all this shit, i'm sure it's about time that they should observe what is happening and feel my sentiments.
It's national day today, i want to wish the nation a very happy birthday! Happy Birthday Singapore!
I had enough ranting already, thanks. Good Bye.
Eye Candy
Did you all see rui en during ndp? She's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sweet-looking, cute and pretty! Rui en...
Bothering boredom.
It's really a torture just staying at home and you can do nuts. God please heal my leg as soon as possible so i may just do what i want to do again! And to even go to church! I've got to miss sentosa today...hate it. All because of my folly, im in such shit hole. God please heal my leg so i can go out, staying at home and listening to my unhappy and ever so easily agitated parents wouldnt help heal my injury, they will make it worse.
Monday, August 08, 2005
You're Beautiful
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.
Thank God.
Thank God i'm still alive and well.
I was almost knocked down by a car yesterday. Thank God that i didnt suffer much injuries except some slight abrasions on my elbow and my knee. But i've sprained my ankle. I don't know how'd i sprained it but i dont recall falling down after the car brushed passed me. All it felt was a strong push on my side and i realised that a car has actually hit me. I was dumbfounded with shock when i saw the car stopping in front of me.
I was trying to cross the road and was playing with my phone, trying to save a note in my phone and merely forgot that the road was a two-way road and become oblivious to the incoming cars on my side. So that was how i got injured.
The driver came out and asked if i was alright and all i could do was to respond with a hand signal that im alright and okay.
Just went to the doctor and the doctor said there's a hairline fracture on the bone connecting my last toe on my left foot. Thank God that it isn't major and will be able to recover in about three weeks time.
What an experience, this isn't the first time, it's the second time. I dont think i'll have a third chance again.
My folly, i'm still thinking to myself, why am i so careless?
Thank God for everything, for blessing me and saving my life. Lucky i believe in Jesus! =)
I was almost knocked down by a car yesterday. Thank God that i didnt suffer much injuries except some slight abrasions on my elbow and my knee. But i've sprained my ankle. I don't know how'd i sprained it but i dont recall falling down after the car brushed passed me. All it felt was a strong push on my side and i realised that a car has actually hit me. I was dumbfounded with shock when i saw the car stopping in front of me.
I was trying to cross the road and was playing with my phone, trying to save a note in my phone and merely forgot that the road was a two-way road and become oblivious to the incoming cars on my side. So that was how i got injured.
The driver came out and asked if i was alright and all i could do was to respond with a hand signal that im alright and okay.
Just went to the doctor and the doctor said there's a hairline fracture on the bone connecting my last toe on my left foot. Thank God that it isn't major and will be able to recover in about three weeks time.
What an experience, this isn't the first time, it's the second time. I dont think i'll have a third chance again.
My folly, i'm still thinking to myself, why am i so careless?
Thank God for everything, for blessing me and saving my life. Lucky i believe in Jesus! =)
Sunday, August 07, 2005
Patience is the key?
Have you ever felt so wasted? I don't mean drunk but you just feel so unaccomplished, you're not contented and there is this tugging inside you that's constantly rubbing off?
I feel so shitty and stupid now.
This was what happened. I was asked to go for some party called blase attitude at newsroom bar last night. This is my first time clubbing, or rather going to club publicly. When i was home, getting changed and ready to get out of the house, i just had this gut feeling that i wouldn't be able to get in, but this was too exciting for me to adhere to my instincts. Unfortunately, this gut feeling of mine was accurate, so i couldnt get in.
Not only was i unable to enter, i've just throwed sixteen dollars away. The sixteen dollars was for the cover charge.
There was about 15 of us and out of the 15, ronald and i were the only ones who couldnt get in, because we're underage. I'm not going into details about what happened to Ron, just to respect his privacy. But because of both of us, marcus, amos, leon and ian stayed outside with us most of the time. I feel so terrible that they didnt get to enjoy themselves fully because of us. I just want to thank them for even coming along with me. And ronald, sorry about it all but thank you for coming along with me.
Sometimes, i just dont understand humans, we are definitely fully aware that we do not have the capability of doing some things that's within our calibre but still, we insist on trying it and at the end when things don't go our way, we feel so unaccomplished and frustrated. Why can't i just wait for a few more months before i can get in legally? Eighteen's really not very far from now. Should have been more patient.
Indeed, as the axiom goes, "curiosity kills the cat". Teenagers are all brimming with curiosity, and i'm one, a teenager who has never seen the world inside a club and would dearly want to see the world inside.
I'm not blaming anyone, not myself, but i just need to vent this out so that i'd feel much better. But i've learned one lesson from this, never take the second step unless you're certain the first step will hold you through to the second one.
What an experience! I thought i'd get beginner's luck!
I'm ending here i've got to do my project due tomorrow. Cheers!
I feel so shitty and stupid now.
This was what happened. I was asked to go for some party called blase attitude at newsroom bar last night. This is my first time clubbing, or rather going to club publicly. When i was home, getting changed and ready to get out of the house, i just had this gut feeling that i wouldn't be able to get in, but this was too exciting for me to adhere to my instincts. Unfortunately, this gut feeling of mine was accurate, so i couldnt get in.
Not only was i unable to enter, i've just throwed sixteen dollars away. The sixteen dollars was for the cover charge.
There was about 15 of us and out of the 15, ronald and i were the only ones who couldnt get in, because we're underage. I'm not going into details about what happened to Ron, just to respect his privacy. But because of both of us, marcus, amos, leon and ian stayed outside with us most of the time. I feel so terrible that they didnt get to enjoy themselves fully because of us. I just want to thank them for even coming along with me. And ronald, sorry about it all but thank you for coming along with me.
Sometimes, i just dont understand humans, we are definitely fully aware that we do not have the capability of doing some things that's within our calibre but still, we insist on trying it and at the end when things don't go our way, we feel so unaccomplished and frustrated. Why can't i just wait for a few more months before i can get in legally? Eighteen's really not very far from now. Should have been more patient.
Indeed, as the axiom goes, "curiosity kills the cat". Teenagers are all brimming with curiosity, and i'm one, a teenager who has never seen the world inside a club and would dearly want to see the world inside.
I'm not blaming anyone, not myself, but i just need to vent this out so that i'd feel much better. But i've learned one lesson from this, never take the second step unless you're certain the first step will hold you through to the second one.
What an experience! I thought i'd get beginner's luck!
I'm ending here i've got to do my project due tomorrow. Cheers!
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Amathe-logy.
My head hurts, my eyes are strained after seeing and manipulating with funny alphabets and numbrs. Yes, i was practicing some math, i've got math test tomorrow.
In my opinion, i feel that A math isn't that too tough, considering all the things i'm studying now is what was taught in A math during the secondary school days. Pretty contented and satisfied that i've understood logarithm and how'd you go about differentiating it. Not too tough!
So wish me some good luck that i'll be able to do the paper tomorrow. Though it's just a common test, but i want to score, to secure some marks that is totally essential for a person who is not a prodigy in math. But practicing will help!
Alright, just felt like blogging something short. I'm gone...
i miss you.
In my opinion, i feel that A math isn't that too tough, considering all the things i'm studying now is what was taught in A math during the secondary school days. Pretty contented and satisfied that i've understood logarithm and how'd you go about differentiating it. Not too tough!
So wish me some good luck that i'll be able to do the paper tomorrow. Though it's just a common test, but i want to score, to secure some marks that is totally essential for a person who is not a prodigy in math. But practicing will help!
Alright, just felt like blogging something short. I'm gone...
i miss you.
My head hurts, my eyes are strained after seeing and manipulating with funny alphabets and numbrs. Yes, i was practicing some math, i've got math test tomorrow.
In my opinion, i feel that A math isn't that too tough, considering all the things i'm studying now is what was taught in A math during the secondary school days. Pretty contented and satisfied that i've understood logarithm and how'd you go about differentiating it. Not too tough!
So wish me some good luck that i'll be able to do the paper tomorrow. Though it's just a common test, but i want to score, to secure some marks that is totally essential for a person who is not a prodigy in math. But practicing will help!
Alright, just felt like blogging something short. I'm gone...
i miss you.
In my opinion, i feel that A math isn't that too tough, considering all the things i'm studying now is what was taught in A math during the secondary school days. Pretty contented and satisfied that i've understood logarithm and how'd you go about differentiating it. Not too tough!
So wish me some good luck that i'll be able to do the paper tomorrow. Though it's just a common test, but i want to score, to secure some marks that is totally essential for a person who is not a prodigy in math. But practicing will help!
Alright, just felt like blogging something short. I'm gone...
i miss you.
Then i saw you.
Amidst the breezing crowd
traversing through the lucid clouds.
Still the sun shuns away from you.
You smiled.
Through the iridiscence,
light that streams into my eyes
i could feel you.
But is this it?
traversing through the lucid clouds.
Still the sun shuns away from you.
You smiled.
Through the iridiscence,
light that streams into my eyes
i could feel you.
But is this it?
Monday, August 01, 2005
Konstantine.
I can't imagine all the people that you know
and the places that you go
when the lights are turned down low
and I don't understand all the things you've seen
but i'm slipping inbetween
you and your big dreams
it's always you
in my big dreams
and you tell me that it's over
wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clovers
and your restless, and i'm naked
you've gotta get out
you can't stand to see me shaking
no
could you let me go?
I didn't think so
and you don't wanna be here in the future
so you say the present's just a pleasent interruption to the past
and you don't wanna look much closer
cuz your afraid to find out all this hope
you had sent into the sky by now had crashed
and it did
because of me
and then you bring me home
afraid to find out that you're alone
and i'm sleeping in your living room
but we don't have much room to live
I had these dreams that i learned to play guitar
maybe cross the country
become a rock star
and there was hope in me that i could take you there
but dammit you're so young
well i don't think i care
and if i hurt you
then i'm sorry
please don't think that this was easy
then you bring me home
cuz we both know what it's like to be alone
and i'm dreaming in your living room
but we don't have much room to live
and konstantine is walking down the stairs
doesn't she look good
standing in her underwear
and i was thinking
what i was thinking
we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere
my Konstantine came walking down the stairs
and all that i could do is touch her long blonde hair
and i've been thinking
it hurts me thinking that these nights
when we were drinking no they never got us anywhere
no
this is because i can spell konfusion with a k
and i like it
it's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it
it's to jimmy eat world and those nights in my car
when the first star you see may not be a star
I'm not your star
isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant
and if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what i did to you
and all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock
it's 11:11
and now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
you'll always be my konstantine
konstantine, they'll never hurt you like i do
no they'll never hurt you like i do
no, no, no no no no no no
this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
hey
you know
you keep me up in bed
this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things i did
hey
maybe
baby
you could keep me up in bed
my Konstantine
spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen
and i said
did you know i missed you?
oh god i miss you
and then you bring me home
and we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no
and you'll kiss me in your living room
i know
you'll miss me in your living room
cuz these nights i think maybe that i'll miss you in my living room
we don't have much room
i said does anybody need that room?
because we all need a little more room
to live
my Konstantine
and the places that you go
when the lights are turned down low
and I don't understand all the things you've seen
but i'm slipping inbetween
you and your big dreams
it's always you
in my big dreams
and you tell me that it's over
wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clovers
and your restless, and i'm naked
you've gotta get out
you can't stand to see me shaking
no
could you let me go?
I didn't think so
and you don't wanna be here in the future
so you say the present's just a pleasent interruption to the past
and you don't wanna look much closer
cuz your afraid to find out all this hope
you had sent into the sky by now had crashed
and it did
because of me
and then you bring me home
afraid to find out that you're alone
and i'm sleeping in your living room
but we don't have much room to live
I had these dreams that i learned to play guitar
maybe cross the country
become a rock star
and there was hope in me that i could take you there
but dammit you're so young
well i don't think i care
and if i hurt you
then i'm sorry
please don't think that this was easy
then you bring me home
cuz we both know what it's like to be alone
and i'm dreaming in your living room
but we don't have much room to live
and konstantine is walking down the stairs
doesn't she look good
standing in her underwear
and i was thinking
what i was thinking
we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere
my Konstantine came walking down the stairs
and all that i could do is touch her long blonde hair
and i've been thinking
it hurts me thinking that these nights
when we were drinking no they never got us anywhere
no
this is because i can spell konfusion with a k
and i like it
it's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it
it's to jimmy eat world and those nights in my car
when the first star you see may not be a star
I'm not your star
isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant
and if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what i did to you
and all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock
it's 11:11
and now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
you'll always be my konstantine
konstantine, they'll never hurt you like i do
no they'll never hurt you like i do
no, no, no no no no no no
this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
hey
you know
you keep me up in bed
this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things i did
hey
maybe
baby
you could keep me up in bed
my Konstantine
spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen
and i said
did you know i missed you?
oh god i miss you
and then you bring me home
and we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no
and you'll kiss me in your living room
i know
you'll miss me in your living room
cuz these nights i think maybe that i'll miss you in my living room
we don't have much room
i said does anybody need that room?
because we all need a little more room
to live
my Konstantine
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