hey people, here are the party pics, i think there will be more coming in, fed by ariel. yeah, so enjoy people!
birthday 2005
Monday, April 25, 2005
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
the party's address.
anyway, guys here's all the party details. the party will be held at leon's new house, which is a hdb flat. the party will start at 7PM, so people be nice and be there around that time. lastly, how do you make your way there? simple! take 163 from toa payoh interchange i REPEAT toa payoh interchange OR wherever that has this bus, 163 that is going away from TOA PAYOH. when will you all stop? simple! just look out for some posters or some cards saying it's, "Ernest party" or something like that, just look out for that and don't worry we'll put a couple of them before the bus-stop so that you wouldnt miss the stop! okay guys? see you there! byebye. anyway, the address of the place is BLOCK405 FERNVALE LANE. WRITE IT DOWN!
Monday, April 18, 2005
Friday, April 15, 2005
the wake.
my grandfather just passed away. sad, yes indeed. got nothing to say. anyway, there will be a wake held at kim tian road block 119; multi-purpose hall. the funeral will be at two at choa chu kang cemetary on sunday.
Monday, April 11, 2005
first day of work.
Today's my first day of work at o'briens, the sandwich bar! The outlet i am going to work at will be situated at millenia walk. I'm excited about the first day of work! At last i will not be wasting my time away doing nothing at home, instead i'll be able to earn some cash for myself!
Anyway, i've to get changed and run off for work now! So i might update later! Cheers.
Anyway, i've to get changed and run off for work now! So i might update later! Cheers.
Thursday, April 07, 2005
subconscious.
Currently, im reading this book titled, purpose driven life by rick warren. The book is really insightful, inspiring yet consoling. I've read to this section about being formed for God's family. Basically, what i've read is mostly about restoring, how do you nurture or maintain and understand friends and friendships.
And this reminds me about my friendship or fellowship with people outside church and inside churc. Subconsciously, i think i'm losing some friendships or rather, looking at it in a different angle, i've become distant from some of my friends that i would consider them as close to me before. I've heard from many and even read from the bible that God places people in our lives for a reason and sometimes they're just going to be there for only a season and then they are gone. I guess that's one of the reason.
But there's another.
The second reason is rather complicated because as i'm typing out this entry, i'm finding it difficult to put it into words and i'll say that the second reason is rather negative and unhealthy. I think this stigma is all about me, myself.
I dont understand why im acting in this manner but i think i am insecure, and somehow i'm either over-sensitive or just insensitive towards people's feelings. I guess that above all of these unstable behaviour, it wraps around one word, apprehension.
Somehow, i'm apprehensive and fearful, sometimes i feel so intimidated and i think i do suffer from inferior complexity. All these started ever since i received my O level results and now i'm beginning to feel the awkwardness about myself and that's why i'm typing out this entry to relieve myself from these burdens, hopefully by doing this, it would assist me in regaining back my usual self again.
When i received my O level results, i was so shattered, everything just tumbled down and fall out of place, my pride, my dreams. Everything was just crushed into smittens. I cried but that did not help to loosen up myself. For the first time in my life, i felt so lost and so hopeless. I cried out to God and asked him why would such a tragedy happen to me, what is this all about? And he replied, everything happens for a reason and My plans are made for you to prosper and not to harm you.
Admittedly, i don't really understand His plans, perhaps i did not pray hard or fervently enough to reveal to me His plans and will for my life.
I knew I would feel terrible for the next couple of weeks and i thought after those few weeks, the side effects will gradually rubbed off slowly, but seems like it didn't. I think i do understand why it didn't rubbed off. I think it's because i'm still clinging on to the fact that i failed, failed in hitting my expectations and also clinging on to my arrogant pride.
It didn't occur to me that how i would feel inside would subtly be revealed through my interactions with people but i realise that all i was trying to put up was a brave front and i'm not being, as the usual slogans, 'don't worry, be happy' or 'be cool'.
It didn't occur to me that such negativity such as being too prideful would grow and slowly be transformed to apprehension, which in fact its the opposite of the latter!
I think at the start of the entry i've mentioned that i'd be writing this entry as an entry of out pouring for relieve but as i progress with this entry, i would like to add a few more 'objectives' to this entry. I would say that this entry would be an entry of surrendering all these problems and burdens to God, be luculent and just allow him to do the best in my life. This entry is also entry to remind and to tell myself that i should stop trying to run away or hide myself in a turtle shell, where nobody would be able to know how i'd feel and just let all these go...
Now, i'm beginning to see that pride is not something that would pull you through things instead, it is humility and modesty.
Due to this apprehension, i've realise that i've lost some parts of communication with people and if i'm not wrong, i've the tendency of oscillating from one mood to another subconsciously. I know these are bad and I've to let go. (So God, take these and rid me off all the bad thoughts away from me)
It is true that when Satan finds out your vulnerabilities and weakness he will attack you with them and i believe i've been under his spell and mercy. I'm not going to allow him to continue his delusion and deceit about me and i'm just going to cling on to God and know that no matter what i've won.
At this very point of time, i've decided to throw down my crowns before God and just tear off that old and broken robe and put on a new one to start anew again. I want to tell all my friends that what i've done or not done or whatever that is, I apologise, I'm sorry, because almost everything was subconscious.
And this reminds me about my friendship or fellowship with people outside church and inside churc. Subconsciously, i think i'm losing some friendships or rather, looking at it in a different angle, i've become distant from some of my friends that i would consider them as close to me before. I've heard from many and even read from the bible that God places people in our lives for a reason and sometimes they're just going to be there for only a season and then they are gone. I guess that's one of the reason.
But there's another.
The second reason is rather complicated because as i'm typing out this entry, i'm finding it difficult to put it into words and i'll say that the second reason is rather negative and unhealthy. I think this stigma is all about me, myself.
I dont understand why im acting in this manner but i think i am insecure, and somehow i'm either over-sensitive or just insensitive towards people's feelings. I guess that above all of these unstable behaviour, it wraps around one word, apprehension.
Somehow, i'm apprehensive and fearful, sometimes i feel so intimidated and i think i do suffer from inferior complexity. All these started ever since i received my O level results and now i'm beginning to feel the awkwardness about myself and that's why i'm typing out this entry to relieve myself from these burdens, hopefully by doing this, it would assist me in regaining back my usual self again.
When i received my O level results, i was so shattered, everything just tumbled down and fall out of place, my pride, my dreams. Everything was just crushed into smittens. I cried but that did not help to loosen up myself. For the first time in my life, i felt so lost and so hopeless. I cried out to God and asked him why would such a tragedy happen to me, what is this all about? And he replied, everything happens for a reason and My plans are made for you to prosper and not to harm you.
Admittedly, i don't really understand His plans, perhaps i did not pray hard or fervently enough to reveal to me His plans and will for my life.
I knew I would feel terrible for the next couple of weeks and i thought after those few weeks, the side effects will gradually rubbed off slowly, but seems like it didn't. I think i do understand why it didn't rubbed off. I think it's because i'm still clinging on to the fact that i failed, failed in hitting my expectations and also clinging on to my arrogant pride.
It didn't occur to me that how i would feel inside would subtly be revealed through my interactions with people but i realise that all i was trying to put up was a brave front and i'm not being, as the usual slogans, 'don't worry, be happy' or 'be cool'.
It didn't occur to me that such negativity such as being too prideful would grow and slowly be transformed to apprehension, which in fact its the opposite of the latter!
I think at the start of the entry i've mentioned that i'd be writing this entry as an entry of out pouring for relieve but as i progress with this entry, i would like to add a few more 'objectives' to this entry. I would say that this entry would be an entry of surrendering all these problems and burdens to God, be luculent and just allow him to do the best in my life. This entry is also entry to remind and to tell myself that i should stop trying to run away or hide myself in a turtle shell, where nobody would be able to know how i'd feel and just let all these go...
Now, i'm beginning to see that pride is not something that would pull you through things instead, it is humility and modesty.
Due to this apprehension, i've realise that i've lost some parts of communication with people and if i'm not wrong, i've the tendency of oscillating from one mood to another subconsciously. I know these are bad and I've to let go. (So God, take these and rid me off all the bad thoughts away from me)
It is true that when Satan finds out your vulnerabilities and weakness he will attack you with them and i believe i've been under his spell and mercy. I'm not going to allow him to continue his delusion and deceit about me and i'm just going to cling on to God and know that no matter what i've won.
At this very point of time, i've decided to throw down my crowns before God and just tear off that old and broken robe and put on a new one to start anew again. I want to tell all my friends that what i've done or not done or whatever that is, I apologise, I'm sorry, because almost everything was subconscious.
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
home
Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm
Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
Im fine baby, how are you?
Well I would send them but I know that its just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
Im lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, Ive got to go home
Let me go home
Im just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like Im living someone elses life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And Im surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
Ive had my run
Baby, Im done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
Ill be home tonight
I’m coming back home
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm
Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
Im fine baby, how are you?
Well I would send them but I know that its just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
Im lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, Ive got to go home
Let me go home
Im just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like Im living someone elses life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And Im surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
Ive had my run
Baby, Im done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
Ill be home tonight
I’m coming back home
deep.
So this is what you mean
And this is how you feel
So this is how you see
And this is how you breathe
Sometimes
I know
Sometimes
I go down deep
Oh
So this is what you mean
And this is how you feel
So this how you see
And this is how you breathe
Sometimes
I know
Sometimes
I go down deep
Oh
Beneath the deep blue sea
Touching every breath
All a slight off hand
For everything you left
Sometimes
I know
Sometimes
I go down deep
Oh
Sometimes
I give myself for you
Sometimes
I know down deep
Sunday, April 03, 2005
a change.
I must say that not going to church on a sunday seems pretty weird now. Hmm, anyway church service been changed to saturday evening at five. So, i needn't wake up too early for anything on a sunday and the next advantage would be that i'd be able to visit other churches in Singapore(I mean, that's if i want to)!
Anyway, i was the host yesterday. No, not a MC, but i'm just suppose to attend to newcomers and yes i kind of attended to a newcomer. It was my first time, so i was really nervous, words didnt come out right from my mouth partly, because i really don't know what to say!
After service, i headed down to geraldine's birthday party which was coordinated by Leon. Hey Geraldine happy birthday! Hey Leon, good job! Your dory was nice! Got to meet all the other brothers again, was pretty much fun though i was just sitting around and engaging myself with food and nothing but food. Oh and like i've said, the black peppered season dory was really good, it was prepared by Leon. (Hmmm, Leon's a good cook.)
That was life yesterday. Today i'll be going down to church later for drumming lessons and next i'll going back to bishan to play soccer! I haven't played soccer for a long time, my legs are itchy, LET'S KICK SOME BALLS!
Signed out.
Anyway, i was the host yesterday. No, not a MC, but i'm just suppose to attend to newcomers and yes i kind of attended to a newcomer. It was my first time, so i was really nervous, words didnt come out right from my mouth partly, because i really don't know what to say!
After service, i headed down to geraldine's birthday party which was coordinated by Leon. Hey Geraldine happy birthday! Hey Leon, good job! Your dory was nice! Got to meet all the other brothers again, was pretty much fun though i was just sitting around and engaging myself with food and nothing but food. Oh and like i've said, the black peppered season dory was really good, it was prepared by Leon. (Hmmm, Leon's a good cook.)
That was life yesterday. Today i'll be going down to church later for drumming lessons and next i'll going back to bishan to play soccer! I haven't played soccer for a long time, my legs are itchy, LET'S KICK SOME BALLS!
Signed out.
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