Struggle.

Before i could take the next step and decide to pull up my socks and start studying proper, it's the seventh week into school and the common tests are already lurking around the corner. If you share the same sentiments as me, yes i empathise with you. Damn, that's fast.

For the past eight weeks, i can't confidently say that i've got a clear grasp about everything that has been preached to me; I would say i'm struggling and it certainly isn't a bed of roses proceeding on from year one to year two. More subjects to tackle with in fact, the most subjects i've taken for my entire poly life; nine subjects! It sucks.

With more modules, meaning more time spent in school and that's not a good sign either.
Why? It's because the timetable i currently have is imbalanced and negatively skewed. We have night classes on monday and then a free day the next day but so what? The next few days are tedious, tiring, long, boring and whatever that's negative you could think of. Besides why would i even need a break on Tuesdays? It's the second day of the week and it's nowhere near the end of it.

On Wednesday, I've got to get up before 8, Thursdays, before 9 and Fridays before 10. So you might think what's the big deal, you'll end early i presume? Not at all. Actually i wouldn't mind having school til 6pm on thursday or wednesday, but not on Fridays! It viciously devoid me from enjoying Fridays, which happens to be the last weekday of the week. I bet this didn't occur to those who created such a screwed-up timetable.

To metaphorically describe the life that i lead in school is like a cup made of glass. Firstly, ice water is poured into the cup and following, boiling water is added into the same glass of water and eventually, it cracks and breaks.

Initially, when i thought that the revamping of modules would be a good idea, a blessing in disguise but instead, it's more like an ill omen in disguise now.

To intensify the situation, there must be some idiot who has to be uniquely eccentric in class to compell the class to boycott him. How shameful is he that step on my toes and incur the wrath within, i say you ought to feel honoured, but i'm sorry bad move. Where art thou shame?

As you might perceived, school hasn't really seem all that enjoyable but it definitely seems more 'exciting'. I had a bad start for one the class test, didn't do well enough to even scrape near my expectations.

So now, i've got to end here and start studying! God please help me...

Laters.

sleepy

darn...i need to sleep. I AM SO SLEEPY. Because i'm in class right now, again...blah. -faints and goes right to sleep-

boring.

Gosh, school doesn't get any exciting, does it? Sigh, it's so boring and it's friggin' cold down here. -shivers- -_-

Happy Mother's Day.

To commemorate happy Mother's day, here's wishing all the moms in the world, a very blessed and Happy Mother's Day! =)

The ruling party of two.

I've found the root reason why i do not want to stay at home when the folks are at home. One phrase, a ruler with an iron fist. Home's becoming like a country's that ruled by two unreasonable rulers, whom just have the authority and thinks they are all so mighty.

I think i was taught how to honour my parents. Think again, sometimes they are a real pain in the ass, who thinks that their word is immaculate and final. Think again, you're wrong. We're just giving you face. Giving you that face that makes you have that impression that you're still having control over us. With such unreasonable and unsatisfactory ruling over the household, I'd say i'm pretty fired up for a revolt now.

Sometimes, i really hate adults? Because they tend to thinkg they are god? But look, you are still human. YOU ARE NOT GOD AND YOU GOT TO KNOW THAT SOMETIMES YOU'RE SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS. Come on, be realistic, be human even if you don't want to be like parents and rather, a dictator.

One more thing, we are living in the modern world, you and your passe traditional attitude should have been scraped a million years ago. I know...I know in the 90s it was a one way thing and "my word is final" but i'm sorry in the new millenia, it's two way and "your word is final" is just the beginning of a "heated argument".

You know, it's not that we want to treat you like "ATM Machine" which you always try to refer it to yourself to credit some "self-sympathy" Perhaps you could look at your demeanour towards us that unwittingly surfaces such "ATM-ONLY-NOT-SOMEONE-TO-GIVE-TWO-HOOTS-ABOUT" qualities. Don't blame us for treating you more than just that, because that's what you've always effortlessly conveyed to us.

And for the last, i'm going to let everybody know about this. Oh you don't know how bitter i feel, but my birthday just passed and what was that one thing that you gave me? NOTHING. Oh wait one more, you gave me this reluctant and perculiarly black and long face on the day of my party held by your OWN family. What kind of shit is that?!

Sometimes, you must try to review about your own actions and not constantly trying to tell us what you've constantly beeen struggling with. You know something? In retrospect, with such parental attitudes and values that you've always inflicted upon us, i'm sincerely apprehensive about picking them after you dictators.

As you've perceived and deduced, i'm pretty annoyed with them. I think i should just get out of here and be home when all that dictators are asleep.